〖期待 ● 期待你發現我的愛〗

LALALALA. READ OK THKX.

2008-06-13T03:04:29Z

yea. so i'm getting a new account. this account is for fluff writings and crack. mhmmkaythkx. the new account will mainly b vainie. this account will still be me - yoojin. new account for fluff+crack is here

mhmm kthkxbai.

-- yoojin&&vainie

livewithnolove @ 2008-03-16T18:34:00

2008-03-17T02:18:23Z

YehSung punched at the couches pillow as he replayed the scene that had happened not to long ago, his aunt and uncle had come and taken his younger siblings away from him. Of course, he wasn't mad at his aunt and uncle, but himself. He felt like a failure, he wasn't able to earn enough money to raise his two sibilings, so out of pity, his aunt and uncle took them to their home, where they would have everything they would need. YehSung colapsed onto his couch and sighed, well, at least he knew his sibilings were in the right hands. When he earned enough money, they would be able to come back to him. YehSung laid there for a moment, catching his breath, before flashing back to what had happened earlier that day. Kim KiBum - that bastard, was still on his mind. YehSung groaned, rolled over and kicked his feet and waved his hands around, wailing like a little kid. He hated how he still had a major crush in KiBum, like his highschool humiliation wasn't bad enough, but seeing him again was even worse. ' well, at least i probably wont see him again! ' YehSung nodded to himself, not like he would see him again, right?

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" One Frappachin-- * cough cough, poor attempts and cover up his face * chino, here you go sir "
YehSung stuttered as he put the cup down and covered his face with the tray, walking back briskly, ' oh god, what the heck? KiBum? oh no, please don't see me!! oh , my , gosh, pleaseeeeee!! ' YehSung was about to duck into the employee lounge when KiBum called out " Excuse me? " YehSung stopped in his tracks, racking his mind for an excuse, " umm... YOU ARE EXCUSED? " and dashed into the employee's lounge, hitting his head on the door without opening the door, yehsung twisted the knob and quicky shut the door. Breathing in a sigh of relief. i, Kim Joong Woon, got AWAY from Kim KiBum!! YehSung's face lit up as he did the happy dance, totally unaware of his two employees looking at him, SungMin nudged KyuHyun, " do you think he's got some problem? " KyunHyun shook his head, " Low on coffee. " SungMin nodded.

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KiBum stared at the empolyee lounge door, confused. ' You are excused? ' He smirked, and how he hit his head on the door, the guy was pretty cute, too bad he couldn't see his face. KiBum looked down on the table and to the frappachino infront of him, oh well, KiBum thought, i guess he didn't realize i ordered a Cappuccino.

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KiBum sighed as he leaned back into his chair, exausted from his day at work, he really needed some " me time ". checking his schedual , he noticed that there we no more appointments today, score!! He could go out and relax! Grabbing his coat, he dashed out of his office and waved bye to his secretary, who was to busy with her work to notice her boss was already going down the elevator.

KiBum parked his car into the tight parking space, swearing at the car that was sloppily parked right beside his own. slamming the door close and locking his car, he walked into the high class bar. Soft jazz music floated into his ears, he smiled, this was the place to relax. Sitting down at his regular table, the waiter brought up a bottle of red wine, KiBum was a regular there, he came at least once a week, sitting at the same table, sipping red wine and smiling to himself. ( weirdooooo 8D ) Enjoying himself and the red wine, something just had to ruin it. His phone rang, groaning, he picked up, it was his secretary" WHAT? MiMi? I'm on my ' me time ', whatt? " " Uhh, Mr. Kim, you still have one appointment, Mr.K-, i mean the other Mr.Kim. He's infront of your office right now. " KiBum groaned, how could he forget? He had to renue the contract with the Coffee house owner. " Ugghh, send him down to the bar, i'll do the contract stuff there, bye! " " wait! " - click -
" hahaha , KiBum 10, secretary ZERO-O! "

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it took around half an hour for the other Mr.Kim to find his way to the bar, stepping into the bar, he looked around and blushed, this was a high class bar. YehSung looked down at what he was wearing, a dress shirt under a ' nerd sweater ' and jeans, converse peaked out from his jeans, yehsung pushed his glasses up silghty, out of all the days, he wears the red ones today. Looking around for the Mr.Kim. YehSung sighed, running his hand through his hair, he looked around, nope nope nope oh shit! , YehSung spotted KiBum sitting there at a table, YehSung tried to cover his face, but not soon enough, KiBum saw him. " Mr.Kim? " YehSung forced a smile on his face, " hehe, hi? " KiBum patted the chair nxt to his, " sit " YehSung gulped.

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" So we will renue the contract for another 5 years and just sign.... here! " KiBum looked up at YehSung, to see him blushing, rocking back and forth in his chair, hand clenched together tightly. " Mr.Kim? " YehSung jolted from his chair, " y-yes? " KiBum smirked, kinda cute KiBum thought i can have some fun with this guy. YehSung sat back down, mumbling an apology. KiBum poured some red wine into the extra wine glass and handed it to YehSung, " Here " YehSung mumbled a thanks and gulped i all down, gagging at the bitterness, but gulping it down anyways. After a second time of explaining the contract and way to many glasses of red wine, YehSung's cheeks were almost as red as his glasses frames. Hiccuping as he stood to leave, he fell back down, clearly drunk. KiBum smirked, I'll have my fun tonight. paying the bill, KiBum picked up YehSung and the contract back to his car, placing YehSung in the passenger seat and buckling up his seat belt, closing the door, KiBum got into the drivers side, already feeling his erection tight against his pants ' shit, hold on a bit kibum, gonna get back home soon and take care of this little problem'

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KiBum fumbled with his keys as he finally opened the door to his house, stumbling inside with YehSung on his shoulder, he quickly locked to door and dragged YehSung up the stairs to his room, the night was just beginning for the two. Laying YehSung down on the huge bed, he quickly stripped of his clothing and moved to take YehSung's off. YehSung groaned slightly, at this time, slowly regaining his consonce ( forgive me , i cnt spell DX ) feeling hands on his chest, he groaned and hit them lightly, mumbling about coffee and cafine. It only took a few seconds for YehSung to finnally notice what was happening, by this time, he was already half naked, shirt and vest discareded somewhere on the floor, but his thoughts were inturupted as he felt a hot wet tounge lick his nipple, gasping, he fell back onto the bed, writhiring under the other mans body, arching his chest up into the mans mouth, wanting more. YehSung felt the mans hands wander down to his belt, unbuckling it quickly and pulling down everything, freeing YehSung's cock. YehSung mewled as soon as he felt the tounge leave his nipple. Getting up, he didn't have enough time to think as the tounge found it's way down to his cock, sucking sloppily, YehSung tried thrusting into the mans mouth. " More, please.. uggh... m-oree " KiBum smirked around YehSung's cock, he teased YehSung as he touched his balls, squeezing them lightly as he bobbed his head up and down on YehSung's hard cock, noticing his own cock, almost touching his stomach. KiBum removed the cock from his mouth as YehSung mewled once again at the loss. This time he didn't waste any time, he knew that he wanted something more than just a frikken blowjob. eyes half closed, he pounced onto KiBum, showering his body with kisses, kicking his pants off, he whispered into KiBum's ear " Fuck me ".

TBC
sorry to leave you guys hanging, buuh srsly, i need to go read som pr0n meself sho i cn do a gd smexscene XD
<333 yoojin;;

VAINIE HEREE

2008-03-17T01:28:15Z

hey, guess what?
nothing.
no srsly. xD
anywaisss``~ dis is for my unni ;; meeshun``~ mhmm``~ late late veri late christmas present. I'LL KEEP THE RATING PG. PROMISSEEEE <333 mhmm``kayyss. mind you that other than meeshee and jiyong, the rest of the characters are fictional,, mhmm, i mite add myself randomly ^^" just for the sake of itt. XD

OFF WEE GOOOOO. ^^"

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" LYKE, HOMFG!! ISH G-DRAGONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!! * insert fangirl scream hereee * "
MeeShun, better known as MeeShee wailed and flung her hans up in the air, screaming ' JiYong!! ' nonstop. SuJin sighed as she muffled MeeShee's screams with her right hand, left hand pulling MeeShee away from ' JiYong ' as she apologized to everyone " SORRY! SORRY! EXCUSE ME! CRAZY LADY COMMING THROUGH! SORRYYYYYYYY!!! ". Finally, SuJin halted and sat MeeShee down on the cafe chair. " SHUSH! MeeShun! you know how much chaos you caused back there?! " MeeShee groaned as she rested her chin on the table " buuh, it's JIYONG!! JiYong!! A once in a lifetime chance to see THE JiYong! and you ruined it T^T your mean. mmmeeaaannn m e a n MEAN! " SuJin brushed it off " yea yea yea, once in a lifetime chance in seeing JiYong, hee-llooo, earth to MeeShun? That was a POSTER of JiYong. " MeeShee groaned," i was PRETENDING that it was him, why do you have to ruin my own little fantasy world? " SuJin rolled her eyes as she sipped on her orange juice.

THE ENDD
( OBESEEIONNNNN eh? xD ._." i made unni sound like sum retard o_o" whoops? )
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KIDDING.// srsly;; i need to work on maa other fanfic``~ mian meeshe >3<"

爱了就是... Love Is...

2008-03-06T04:11:07Z

3 years ago... [[ high school setting ]]

Fiddling with his glasses, Kim JongWoon- better known as YehSung, would do the most couragous... at least to him, thing in his life time. What is it? a confession ( dun dun dun! ). a confession to who? none other than the number one king-ka/pretty boy of the high school - Kim KiBum. But, you see, back then, YehSung has thick big glasses, pimples, braces, weird flat hair, and geeky clothing... not really what KimKiBum would consider.. at all. But YehSung was willing to try his luck. Afterall... you'd never know if you don't try? Well, YehSung would never know that this would lead to the worse humiliation of his life... ( dun dun dun.. don't ask xD )

" KiBum? " YehSung whispered out as he tapped KiBum's shoulder. Spinning around, KiBum raised an eyebrow. " Yeessssss?" YehSung gulped , oh crud, he's so sexy and cute and innocent . okay Kim Joong Woon, breath, brrreeeeaaaaattthhhhh. one. two. three. oh shut up inner demons. i'm going to say it NOWWWW. gogogo Kim Joong Won! "

" KimKiBum * takes a 5 second deep breath* i'velikedyousincethebeginingwhenwemetinelementryschool.willyougooutwithme?"

YehSung blushed and looked at his feet, which were covered with his shiny uniform shoes.

*Snicker.

YehSung looked up, to see KiBum laughing, turning red, clutching at his stomach, pointing at YehSung and laughing.

" AHAHAHA. YOU?! YOUR * chokes on laughter * oh man, yehsung, look at yourself. do you see yourself remotely close to the people i go out with? oh man, yehsung, your such a loser. "

With that, KiBum laughed the rest of the way home. Leaving poor YehSung standing infront of the school, near tears.

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Present-yo. <- *shruggs... i'm... in a gangster mode atm YO TOUCH MAN XD

. YehSung sighed as he cleaned off the last coffee table. It was 3 years since graduation, 20 year old Kim Joong Woon, who now opened a small but sucsessful coffee shop in the heart of Seoul. After YehSung's graduation, YehSung had full scolarship to university, but because his parents had died in a fatal car crash, he had to drop out of university to take care of his 2 younger sibilings. His promising bright future was gone, just like that. Taking off his apron, he gathered his stuff and walked out of the coffee shop, locking it behind him. YehSung had changed over the 3 years. His skin now as smooth as a baby's skin, no more pimples ( yay ), his thick glasses are gone after going through lazer eye surgery and only wearing contacts or ocasional fob frames ( i don't know what you call those, but you get the point ). His hair was now styled and better looking, his clothes, reasonable, comfortable. nothing specail. YehSung sighed. if he had looked like this during highschool, maybe Kim KiBum would like him? YehSung shook his head, don't even think about it Kim Joong Woon. flipping his hair over to the side as he walked on the sidewalk, he passed by a bar. Exiting at the same time was a man, charming, cute, sexy. YehSung scrunched his face up in a cute way, he looks so familiar YehSung pondered for a second, before yelling out in horror,

" KIM KI BUM?! "

the man turned around, " Yeeessss? "

That same taunting ' innocent ' smile of his, stairing back at him. YehSung, gulped, blushed and ran away.

" NIGHTMARES!!!! UMMA~APPA~ HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!"

KiBum watched as YehSung ran down the street screaming, oh well, probs some random .... whatever... he does look familar though........ i wonder... * ponder ponder.

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LAMELAMELAME CHAPTER. only the beginning.. im sick and my mind is going like BAMBAMBAMBAMBAMBAMBAM. =3=. AWESOME SMEXI IN NEXT CHAPTERS KTHKZ. ^^"

Frogie Teuk only Jumps for KangIn~

2008-02-12T01:55:22Z

" heyheyhey, don't stick your bum out at her, be polite."

" yea, yea,yea. got it. "

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It was EeTeuk's turn to lift the 100kg weight. ' i'll get it ', EeTeuk said to himself. Getting himself in a stable stance, he didn't realli notice how wide his legs were apart. ' One, Two Three!- AH! '

EeTeuk fell over, rubbing his sore bottom. " Yah! What was that for?! "

KangIn stuck his tounge out at EeTeuk. " Don't stick your bum out at her, be polite."

EeTeuk rolled his eyes, " yea yea yea, got it. " and returned to his position. SungMin and RyeoWook looked from a side, SungMin whispered." He looks like a frog~ "

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As soon as they were off the show, EeTeuk found himself pinned up against the bathroom wall. An angry KangIn breathing heavily on his neck.

" You only open you legs wide like that for me Teuk`~"

EeTeuk smirked.

livewithnolove @ 2008-01-04T19:42:00

2008-01-05T03:59:23Z

It was cold. Shivering, EeTeuk pulled a blanket ontop of his frail, shaking body. Wrapping it like a coccon around his body,
he breathed on his hands to keep himself warm. Where's KangIn? EeTeuk thought to himself, KangIn had said he would be home soon, but EeTeuk ignored the thought and stayed in his cold bed, all alone. waiting for KangIn to return.

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EeTeuk wrinkled his nose slightly as he put his hand up to his eyes to block out the sunlight. tossing around in his bed for a while, he mumbbled ," KangIn-yahh... wake upp....". EeTeuk's eyes were still closed as he repeated this a few times, expecting a groan and the bed moving a bit. But KangIn stayed silent. EeTeuk opened his eyes, looking to his side, he found no KangIn. EeTeuk sighed. Where are you KangIn?

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EeTeuk stood infront of the mirror. Looking at himself from the left side, then the right. Giving himself a satisflied smile, he fixed out his suit and smiled brightly, dimple glowing. Today was his and KangIn's special day, it's the day that one's life should be happiest. It was his wedding, and nothing could ruin it. EeTeuk sat down infront of his vanity and spread a light layer of blush onto his cheeks and giggled girlishly. Oh he couldn't wait until ten minutes later, just think EeTeuk said to himself, i'll be KangIn's spouse soon! EeTeuk covered his reddened cheeks as he wiped off the blush. it's better to look natural, no makeup. Just as he finished fixing his hair, there was a knock on the door.

" Come in~! "

The door opened as EeTeuk turned around.

" KangIn! "

EeTeuk jumped up and ran to hug KangIn " Clinging onto KangIn he giggled, " Arn't you supposed to not see me before our wedding? Or did you miss me so much last night? " EeTeuk closed his eyes and giggled more. Oh how he loved KangIn. Pulling away from EeTeuk, KangIn looked deep into EeTeuk's bright smiling eyes, " EeTeuk... " EeTeuk nodded ," yeaa? " KangIn sighed, pushing EeTeuk away, he ran his hand through his short hair, clearly frustrated. EeTeuk looked up at KangIn, " YoungWoon... is something... wrong? "

KangIn looked into EeTeuk's worried eyes and finnaly answered

" Teukie...? "

" yes, YoungWoon? "

" I.....I......I....."

" I....? "

KangIn looked a EeTeuk once more and stomped his foot on the ground.

" Teukie, I'm sorry. "

" Why...?"

At this moment, SungMin walked into the room. KangIn took SungMin's hand.

" This. "
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Christmas story ** seriously.. i need help >3

2007-12-14T18:50:19Z

**notenote frm livewithnolove**
halooo`` dis is vainie aka livewithnolove( well... yoojin is the one buuh i needed to use her account )`` neways... i have dis christmas story due dis monday ( todai ish fridaii ) and guess what? i cant write good ="= i need it to rhyme... or at least sound a bit better ^^" if anyone reads my journal entries other than my yaoi stories... pls give me some advice? pls?kthks!!!!

-- Vainie

T’was the night of chirstmas eve, and magic was in the air.

The jolly ol’ baker took out his cookie maker.

Humming a joyous tune, he looked out at the mooon.

T’was the night of christmas eve, and magic was in the air.

the jolly ol’ baker placed a hat atop his crisp white hair

humming a soft tune, he rolled out the dough

the little bitty cutters, crawling towrds the dough

jmping up and down they all sang nysnc, “ hi, ho, it’s chirstmas eve!!”

Crawling back into their draswers, the holly ol’ baker plACed the cookies into the oven

within seconds, the cookies were done, they duped right out of the oven and turned into santa’s sleigh

the jolly ol’baker changed his hat and with a jolly “ ho ho ho “ he was on his way!!

**another note from the author ^_^" i noe ish lame... buuh.. i finished it in one nite.. and i was lacking cafeene cz i was tired... n guess where i'm typing diss? I'M TYPING DIS AT SCHOOL!!! D:< AND THERE'S A GUY RITE BESIDE ME N IUNO WHT HE'S DOING... ="= well.. at least nuone will noe what yaoi ish XDXDXDXD

email me if yu oculd help me or just post ur comment below...
neways... my email ish : thebitternessinside@live.ca

GAMSAAA!!!XIEXIE!!!!THANKQQ!!!

-Vainieee

ihu.

2007-11-06T02:47:22Z

i hate you/

i miss you

i love you

i need you

but you don't.

x.

your a heartbreaker.

your a fake.

your a killer.

you killed me.

my heart.

my everything.

o.

and yet/

i love you.

till the end.

and/

i know

i'll never get it back.

x.

i'll love you.

but i know you'll never love me~

so it ends here.

o.

but wait.

i see red.

it's beautiful.

especially when it gently flows down my wrist

down to my elbow

it's beautiful.

and it makes me feel so good.

sometimes better than you.

x.

umma is yelling at me

appa is yelling at me

everyone is

but not you

you smile at me

your smile

reasures me

and i know it's fake

o.

it burns now

i don't think i can take it anymore

i think i'll end it once and for all.

you said it would feel better.

right?

x.

wrong.

x.emo times

2007-10-28T23:52:17Z

if anyone even reads my journal...

i am currently having a EMOTIONAL breakdown

boyfriends kill.

fuck them.

when the internet goes down...

2007-10-28T17:24:50Z

    EeTeuk wailed in frustration. He slamed the mouse down on the pad and randomly pushed on random buttons, but it didn't work. " AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!"

    KangIn rushed into the living room with only a towel on and a toothbrush in his mouth." wa-s wong keukie? " EeTeuk banged his head on the table, " The , internet , is, down!" EeTeuk flung his arms around KangIn and cried, " my, fanfictions!!! I'm going to DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" KangIn chocked on the toothpaste that he almost swallowed, fanfictions? EeTeuk continued to cry in KangIn's arms ," Don't worry EeTeuk, you still have televison. EeTeuk shook his head ," IT'S NOT THE SAMEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! " KangIn sighed, " Listen Teukie, i have to go to work, you call the internet service guy and tell him to come and help you fix it, okay? " EeTeuk shook his head ," NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, THOSE TAKE HOURS!!!!" KangIn sighed, " Teukie, i have to go to work!! play with HyukJae, okay?" EeTeuk wailed and sat on the floor cross legged, " NO! HyukJae watches PORN!"

    KangIn took this moment to rush into the bathroom, pull on some clothes, finish brushing his teeth and grabbed his bag, " Teukie, Hyukkie dosen't watch porn! be a good boy okay? bye! " KangIn gave EeTeuk a kiss on the cheek and then left.

    EeTeuk crossed his arms and pouted ," BUT! HYUKKIE WATCHES STRAIGHT PORN!!!! "

x.~

    EeTeuk hesitated. Should he really go watch porn with HyukJae? EeTeuk groaned but, i want to read kangteuk fanfics!!!!! with lots of porn! 8D

    EeTeuk sighed, at least he could pretend that it was him and Kangin in the video, he knocked on the door. HyukJae opened the door slightly, " yes umma? "

    " Can i watch porn with you? "

x.~

    EeTeuk's eyes widened. Like biiiigggg. really big. He NEVER knew how flexible HanKyung was. Neither did he know that YehSung could even drink coffee while doing it. the video ended, and hell was EeTeuk hard. He could feel his erection rub against his baggy sweatpants. " Errr, Hyukkie? " HyukJae looked up from the screen," mm? " You have any other tapes? HyukJae smirked, " i do, which kind do you want?" EeTeuk blushed, " Anything that i would like? "

    HyukJae smiled, " Oh, i know what you want. "

x.~

    Ee Teuk walked back to his room. Locking the door, he set the memory card into his laptop and waited for it to load. Sitting down on his bed, he waited patiently for it to load. The video started to play. EeTeuk peered closer, it was... KANGIN?! What was KangIn doing? EeTeuk watched closely as KangIn removed his clothing quickly, he rolled his fingers over his erection and pumped with his other hand. EeTeuk did the same. He felt himself wanting more. The video ended. hell, KangIn goes fast. EeTeuk put the video on repeat as it played over and over again. EeTeuk reached under his bed and produced a vibrater that HeeChul had given him a week earlier. He pushed it into himself and brushed his fingers againsh the button at the base as it started to hum inside of him. EeTeuk clutched at the sheets under him and gasped. EeTeuk panted as he felt the vibrater brush by his g-spot, making him cum, the same time as kangin did in the video.

fuck internet and fanfics, i have this video.

x.~

    KangIn entered the apartment and heard no wailing. he smiled. EeTeuk must have been watching tv with HyukJae. Walking to EeTeuk and his room, he unlocked the door," EeTeuk, i'm home!" KangIn frowned, EeTeuk was asleep under the blankets, naked. and a laptop infront of him. KangIn reached for the blankets and pulled them off EeTeuk, the vibrater was still humming inside of EeTeuk. KangIn covered his naked sleeping boyfriends and turned towards the laptop. His eyes widened.

" HYUKJAE YOU ARE SO DEAD! "

Back Rubs.

2007-10-15T00:47:29Z

EeTeuk was freaked out the first time he had heard moans coming from HanKyung and SiWon's room. It must be a back rub or something. EeTeuk had reasured himself. But it didn't last long, soon, EeTeuk was hearing moans from SungMin and RyeoWook's room. EeTeuk was curious to know what his children were doing behind closed doors, so one night, when HeeChul and KiBum had stayed behind from a movie, EeTeuk knew that they were in for a back rub. EeTeuk told the other members that his head felt heavy and he had to stay behind, of course, without HeeChul and KiBum knowing.

As soon as the front door shut, EeTeuk could hear moans from HeeChul's room already. Quietly sneaking over to the room, he noticed that the door was left ajar, just enough for him to peek through it. He saw that KiBum's eyes were closed and his mouth was opened, letting a gasp escape it. HeeChul was on top, moving his hips back and forth. ohhh, so this must be a hip massage, not a back rub, stupid silly ol' JungSu. EeTeuk proceeded to walk back to room when he heard HeeChul call out, " Oh EeTeuk, i know your there~" EeTeuk smiled and replied while walking back to the room, " Was i ruining your hip massa- oof!" EeTeuk was pulled into the room and squished against the door, face on the cold wooden door , struggling a bit, EeTeuk spoke," now, HeeChul, you can have a nice hip massage with KiBum, and i won't bother you two, but this is no way to treat your umma!" HeeChul smirked and licked the shell of EeTeuk's ear, making him shiver ," oh no, umma, you'll want to watch this hip massage."

EeTeuk's eyes widened as he shead a tear, hands tied together behind his back with his legs tied to the bed post. His whole body jerked as HeeChul thrusted in and out of KiBum.

" My children * sniff *, they grow up so fast * sniff * "
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EeTeuk was sent back to his room with a few toys, courtesy of HeeChul. EeTeuk scratched his head, what were these? EeTeuk picked up a pair of hand cuffs and threw them away in disgust," Why would HeeChul say that those are toys? " EeTeuk continued to look through the pile, he reached for a red long toy. EeTeuk examined it for a while and sniffed it, " mmm~ strawberries, i guess this is candy." EeTeuk put the tip to his mouth and sucked it, " that's weird," EeTeuk said to himself," I can't taste strawberries, i guess the candy is in the inside, i'll need to suck it harder so that this layer comes off and i can eat the candy!" EeTeuk held the device with two hands and his head bobbed up and down as he sucked hard on the ' candy '.

KangIn entered the house and shut the door behind him quietly, he knew that HeeChul and KiBum must be having sex and EeTEuk would think it was a back rub, he would need to stop EeTeuk from going over to the room and figure out what his ' innocent ' children were doing. KangIn was about to knock on EeTeuk's door when he heard sucking sounds. Opening he door as quietly as he could, KangIn peaked into the room, he spotted EeTeuk on the bed, sitting cross legged and sucking on a , a- vibrater?! EeTeuk's eyes were closed as he sucked hard. KangIn gluped at the sight. EeTeuk stopped for a second, KangIn was afraid that EeTeuk had found him and he ran quietly and quicky to his own bed room.

EeTeuk stopped and scratched his head, " I can't taste anything! I guess i should go ask HeeChul what this is for then." EeTeuk got up from his bed and walked to HeeChul's room. " HeeChul! I need some help." The door was opened by a panting and sweaty KiBum who pulled his hyung in and slammed the door. HeeChul was sitting on the bed, legs dangled from the bed and naked. HeeChul sat up and smirked, " Sorry EeTeuk, but you'll have to wait for tomorrow because me and KiBum arn't doing no shows for anyone today, not even umma. " EeTeuk still didn't really get what HeeChul meant, but he ignored it and proceed to ask his question," HeeChul, what is this for? " EeTeuk asked as he gave HeeChul a confused look. HeeChul took the toy into his hands and gave EeTeuk a light smirk, "Well umma, you stick this up your ass-" " HEECHUL!" HeeChul looked up at EeTeuk, " what? " " You do not! i repeat, do not! use that kind of language in this house, especially not in front of the kids and your umma!" HeeChul smirked, " okay then, you stick this up your butt hol-" " Ahem!" " up your behind, umma your BEHIND." EeTeuk gave HeeChul another confused look then an annoyed look. " Now now, HeeChul, just because i am your BAND umma, it dosen't mean that i am your real umma, and that doesn't mean that i'm FEMALE, and that DOES NOT mean that i have my period!" HeeChul laughed loudly as KiBum stiffled a laugh from behind his book. HeeChul shook his head and patted EeTeuk's head," no no no, it's not for your - laughs - period, UMMA, it's , just stick it up your ass- " EeTeuk glared at HeeChul," i mean behind, just do it okay? You'll feel GREAT!" EeTeuk gave him a look," really?" HeeChul nodded, " oh and yea, you might want to cover the toy with this before you stuff it up your ass- i mean behind." HeeChul said while handing EeTeuk a tube. With the two items in hand, HeeChul laughed as he pushed EeTeuk out the door and waved goodbye.

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EeTeuk walked back to his room and locked the door. he placed the two items onto his bed. " First, if i'm going to to this, i can't have my pants on." EeTeuk removed his pants and boxers, he noticed that his shirt was quite long, so he took that off too. " And now, i need to put myself in a comfortable position." EeTeuk jumped onto his bed and lied down for a second ," that's comfortable, now, i need to put this onto that." EeTeuk popped the cap of the tube and poured the sticky cream like substance onto his hands, sniffing it, it smelled like strawberries, he coated the vibrater with the cream and opened his legs, finding his entrance, he put the toy to his entrance and slowly pushed it into himself, EeTeuk gasped as he felt the cold cream coated item enter him, he waited for himself to get used to it as he pushed it further and further, a bit by bit, soon, he had stuffed the item up his behind. Wait, this isn't making me feel great?!" Just then, there was a knock and a loud yell from the room beside him ," HYUNG! MOVE IT IN AND OUT!" EeTeuk followed KiBum's instructions and did so, soon, he started to feel pleasure, moving it faster and faster, he gasped as he felt the toy hit a spot that made his muscles clench. EeTeuk hit the same spot over and over again, moaning and gasping.

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KangIn who was hiding in his room head a yell and then peaked outside of his room, the hallway was clear, must have been HeeChul and KiBum, quietly walked towards EeTeuk's room, he heard moans. Try to open the door, he noticed it was locked. Fishing out a key, he unlocked the door and pushed the door opened a bit, he spotted EeTeuk on the bed squirming and pushing a , a vibrater in and out of himself, KangIn gulped and couldn't help but stare at his boyfriend.

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EeTeuk was unaware of a gaping KangIn at the door, he was too into his own world of pleasure. EeTeuk's fingers brushed against a button at the base of the toy as the toy shook his entire body, EeTeuk's back arched up as he cluched the sheets under him. " OH DEAR GOD! " EeTeuk yelled out in pleasure. KangIn watched as EeTeuk neared his climax and relased into the white clear sheets. EeTeuk's breath was jagged as he tried to regain his breath. KangIn walked in unnoticed, stripping out of his clothes. He rolled onto the bed beside his lover and snuggled up against EeTeuk's sweaty body. KagnIn removed the vibrating vibrater from his lovers entrance as EeTeuk wimpered at the empty feeling, tossing it aside, KangIn kissed EeTeuk's forhead, and whispered ," next time, just tell me that you wanted it- mmokay?" EeTeuk looked up at KangIn bewildered," What?! on earth! are you talking about. Kim. YoongWoon?" EeTeuk scolded KangIn through his jagged breathing. KangIn nuzzled EeTeuk's neck and murmured ," mm~ EeTeuk umma, this is what we called sex."

EeTeuk was about to protest about how HeeChul said it just made people feel good but KangIn hushed with a kiss and pulled the covers over both of their bodies.

Suprize.

2007-09-24T22:19:20Z

YehSung's birthday was in 3 days, and RyeoWook had everything planed out. Everything would go perfect. Just as long as no body was in the way, and Ryeo Wook was sure that nothing would ruin it.

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3 days later.
" Morning wookie! " YehSung mumbled as he nuzzled Ryeowook's neck with his mouth and neck, RyeoWook responded with a moan and a mumbled morning. " Today is a big big BIG day Sungie!" YehSung chuckled and nodded, " and what are you going to do to make the birthday boy happy?" RyeoWook smiled, " Everything."

Down at the dinner table, YehSung and RyeoWook were having breakfast, feeding each other, staring into each others eyes, it was romantic, well, good enough. Breakfast was done. And just as YehSung was bout to leave for his birthday celebration with his workmates, RyeoWook pulled him back, " mm,, tonight, wear something sexier. " YehSung giggled like a school girl," why?"
RyeoWook winked, " secret " hell no, RyeoWook wasn't going to leak anything about this perfect date. YehSung shot a joking glare at RyeoWook as both burst into laughter, " No but seriously, can't you tell me anything? Please wookie!" RyeoWook shook his head," no! " as he sat back down on his chair and opened a magazine ," it's a secret, i don't want to spoil it. " YehSung grumbled a bit, grabbing his straped bag, he kissed RyeoWook on the cheek and waved goodbye and disapered out the door. RyeoWook removed the magazine from it's place and placed it back onto the table, rubbing the tent in his shorts, he smiled, it as going to be a memorable birthday surprize.

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" hmmm,, so what's RyeoWook going to do for your birthday? " SungMin asked as he snugged next to KyuHyun. YehSung pondered for a moment, " i dont' know, he wouldn't leak any info to me this morning. " HeeChul snuggled up to HanGeng as the two giggled, SiWon grumbled, lying his head onto HanGeng's shoulder, " you think his going to give you cherries again? " " naww,, probably coffee..." HeeChul snapped at SiWon's stupid answer and slapped him on the head. Siwon stuck his bottom lip out as HanGeng chuckled, he kissed SiWon's bottom lip and put it back into the charming smile. "Well, whatever RyeoWook does, it will be good for YehSung, right?" Everyone nodded at KyuHyun's statment. Anything from RyeoWook would make YehSung happy. HanGeng and HeeChul smirked a bit, they had helped RyeoWook plan out YehSung's birthday surprize. It would be wonderful.

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YehSung stood infront of the mirror in the room he shared with RyeoWook, the fishnet shirt he had boughten at the sex shope was really tight, but it was worth it, it made him stand out so much, YehSung pulled off his boxers, tossing them aside, he picked up a pair of tight jeans. After five minutes of shoving himself into them, he finally got them on. Turning from left to right infront of the mirror, He couldn't help but smile, RyeoWook would be so suprized.

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YehSung walked through the dimly littled hallway of the motel, key in hand YehSung smirked, he knew was was going on, RyeoWook would problably be putting a show on for him. Pole dancing, whatever it was, YehSung thought that it would be predictable for sure.

and of course, yehsung was wrong.

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YehSung finally reached the end of the hallway, reaching out the slid the key into the slot, he didn't realize the figure behind him. Just as he was about the open the door, a pair of powerful hands wrapped around his waist and mouth, a cloth covering his nose and mouth, YehSung thrashed his head side to side, trying to get loose. But his vison begain to fade. soon, YehSung was limp in the hands of a stranger.

Who was grinning very widely.

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YehSung moaned as he started to wake up, trying to move his hand to rub his eyes, he noticed that his hands and feet were tied to the bed post. It was like a nightmare and a fantasy that a knight in shining armor ( RyeoWook ) would come save him. Thrasing his body from side to side, YehSung ignored the throbbing pain at his wrists and feet. He wanted to break free. YehSung looked around, he couldn't see a thing, it was pitch black. Turning his head to his left, he could feel something, or someone's breath. YehSung whimpered in fear ," who- who are you?" The figure smirked, in a deep voice, he reliped ," Your biggest night mare and biggest fantasy."

The man was still fully clothed ( at least YehSung thought ), maybe he wouldn't want his life? what did he want? YehSung wasn't given another change to think as he felt the man's fingers brush over his nipple. YehSung cursed, his sensative nipple felt so sore, it longed for someone to touch it and roll it around in their fingers, YehSung shook his head, this was wrong. YehSung thrashed his body once again trying to break free, but it was useless, YehSung tried to scream, but the man had already placed a peice of cloth into his mouth. YehSung cursed again as he felt the man map his body out thorugh the fishnet shirt. his skin burining under the mans touch. The man brushed his fingers lightly over the sensative parts as YehSung's back arched off the bed and back down. YehSung's yell was muffled as he felt the man rip the ~~cloth~~ threads off his body, leaving him half naked. oh god, YehSung thought as he felt the mans hand snake under his pants to grasp his erection. YehSung gasped as the man tugged hardly on his erection, YehSung arched off the bed, groaning in agony, the man was teasing him, and it was killing him. YehSung totally forgot about who this man was, all he wanted now was for this man to fuck his brains out. But, nothing comes easy. The man teased YehSung, tweaking his nipples, flicking his touge over the swollen skin. The man sucked and licked on YehSung's shoulder, where a hickey would appear in the morning. The man's tounge moved down, over his belly button and to his strained member. The man torn his jeans off, revealing YehSung's nude body for him to see. The man lowered his head to YehSung's erection. rubbing his balls, the man licked the tip, and blew on it, sending chills up YehSung's spine. The man teased YehSung, licking and blowing, leaving YehSung desperatly trying to thrust into his mouth. the man moved his finger from YehSung's balls to the tight pucker, teasing him as he circle the dry entrance. YehSung felt a finger shove up himself as he arched his back off the soft bed, he felt himself come as the man fingered him. YehSung relased. Panting as he fell back to the bed with a soft thud. The man took this reaction as a signal. Quickly untying YehSung's feet and arms, he fliped him over skillfully and without waiting for YehSung to recover, he rammed into YehSung, he took him raw and without warning, ramming into him over and over again, angling in a different direction each time , hoping to hit YehSung's sweet spot. YehSung removed the gag from his mouth, using his elbows to support himself, he nearly fell back down, with the man ramming into him and his neglected cock rubbed roughly against the covers. He let out a loud moan and rammed himself back making the man hit his sweet spot each time. YehSung forced the man deeper into him, ramming into his sweet spot, hitting hard each time. YehSung yelled out as he felt himself come again. He saw fireworks burst infront of his eyes as his vison turn white for a second before he closed them and landed onto the bed, releasing for the second time that day. The man groaned and released into YehSung, filling him. The two landed back to the bed. There was scilence as the two regained their breath.

" Happy Birthday YehSungie. "

YehSung's eyes shot opened.

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;D how was it? hmm... have any idea who the man was?

Twists and Turns summary

2007-09-24T21:07:30Z

I'm so sorry to the people who have been reading my gay bar fic, twists and turns.... i'm not good at chapter stories, so usually half way through,, i get stuck.... so i guess it's ending here,, though i do have the ending or spoliers as some call it.

1. ) SiWOn and HanGeng develop feelings for each other, and run the gay bar together.

2. ) after his atempt failed in making HanGeng's life total hell, the stalker man, sungmin, was put in jail for kidnaping HanGeng.

3. ) a myseterious man visits Sungmin everyday, and comforts him, that he will be a good man when he comes out.

~ 10 years later ~

Life is great, SiWon and HanGeng were cuddled on the couch , SiWon would sometimes reach over and feel HanGeng's stomach, feeling the light kick from the baby. ( yes, lets just pretend that male pregnency is ... normal XD ) HanGeng and SiWon have become friends with SungMin again, after clearing their past confusions.

as for sungmin, he sits in jail, waiting for the day he comes out, he's a changed man. After clearing his past confusions with HanGeng, he realizes that HanGeng wasn't the reason his family split up. As much as he hates to admit it, it was is mothers fault. But he is no longer in depresson, with two great friends like HanGeng and SiWon..... but there is one problem. There was a man, who throughout these 10 years came to visit him, but since a week ago, he didn't come. SungMin grew frustrated, he didn't even know the mans name. Now 26, SungMin walks out of the prisons that have held him back for a long time, spining around and laughing, he feels the fresh air an his pale skin, he's a whole new person, with a new goal. He must find the person who's been keeping him well. He smiles a bit, thinking about the past, he wipes it all away, he is now Lee SungMin, a new changed man, who will be a wonderful and helpful person in society. SungMin peers ahead of him, there is a figure there. SungMin saw the mans feet, the shoes.. it was him! SungMin ran towards the man. " Hey you! Stop! Wait!!!" SungMin groaned as the man ran, he must have thought SungMin was trying to kill him or sumthing. " It's meeee! SungMin!!!!!!!" The man stopped and turned around, a bit to fast, as SungMin couldn't stop in time, crashing into him, sending both the the floor. SungMin was lying ontop of the man, their faces so close, SungMin closed his eyes, moving his face closer and closer......

" o_0 what was that for?" the man pushed sungmin off of him, dusting off his coat. SungMin sat there on the floor, totaly confused, hadn't this man felt anything for him for these past 10 years? SungMin soon realized how pathetic he looked he stood up, eyes glued to his feet, " i'm.. sorry, i, i was to ... i was- i just wanted your name" SungMin bit his lip, it was embarsing and heart breaking, he was so naive and stupid to think of something going on between the two, But the man smiled, taking off his sun glasses, SungMin looked up to a handsome smiling figure. " I love you too, and my name is-"

TOOOOOOT ! a truck wized past the two. " YAAAAHOOOO!!!" SungMin and _______ turned towards the direction of the truck, there were two men in the truck, one was driving with a mug of coffee in his hand, the other was desperatly trying to get the mug of coffee

" ryeo wook!! you've had enough coffee!!!!"

" nooo!!! it's miiinnnnneee!!!!"

Sungmin and _______ walked hand in hand, away from the prison and towards a new life.

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yes. and as for yehsung and ryeowook. their ending was good. well. yea. good. ;)

livewithnolove @ 2007-09-20T18:41:00

2007-09-21T02:49:13Z

Time flies by, and when you know it, it's been a month. HanGeng couldn't even keep track of the days, a few weeks ago, every time he walked home from work, there was always this strange eerie feeling as if someone was watching him. But HanGeng shook the thought away, he had more important matters infront of his own imagination. He was begining to suspect his boss was hitting on him.

HanGeng shoved his arm through the fish net shirt as he searched his drawers for a pair of tidey widies. He was practically SURE that he had a pair somewhere.... or at least 5, in high school, the teachers didn't let then wear boxers, they had to wear tidey widies... why he didn't know, neither did he care,, all he needed right now was to find a pair of underwear so that he wouldn't have to fit into those horrid jeans with no underwear so they stuck up his butt. Groaning in furstration, he stomped the floor as he searched the last drawer, reaching in a bit, he found... found... TIDEY WIDIES!!!

" Dammit, those are from grade 6 " HanGeng grumbled as he tossed the tidey wides aside. The poor little tuly cartoon's smile was fading away.

Sighing, HanGeng pulled on the tight jeans, grabbing his backpack on the way out and ran to work.

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" gosh, what day is today? why are there so many people?" HanGeng wondered out loud while wiping some glasses. DongHae smirked and drapped an arm over HanGeng's shoulder. "Well Hyun-Ki, if you haven't noticed yet..." DongHae smirked a bit ," Nevermind, i'll let you find out yourself. " Patting HanGeng on the head, he lifted a try full of drinks and dissapeared into the crowd.

" Boy is he weird. "

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3: 00 am.

HanGeng's eyes almost gave out on him as he served the customer another beer. Didn't the bar close at 2? why were there so many people? HanGeng peered over his shoulder and looked at the clock..... 3... 12... 3 O CLOCK IN THE FCUKEN MORNING?! HanGeng groaned. This was going to be a long night, plus, the jeans were being a bitch and riding up is butt cheeks again. HanGeng smiled as he saw EunHyuk and DongHae emerge from the employee's lounge, ' good, i get a break. ' Signaling for the 2 to take over his spot, he sighed and walked into the enployee's lounge. The dimly lit room was wonderful. A perfect place to sleep. HanGeng sighed and flopped onto the couch, in a matter of seconds he fell asleep.

" Sleep well, because, your life will be hell soon," the dark figure moved to the door of the room, turning his head back, he smirked ," HanGeng. "

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SiWon sliped into the employee lounge, hair messed up, shirt buttons half undone, SiWon's breath was a bit jagged as he zipped up his fly, walking towards the light switch, he was about to flick it on, but he heard light snoring. Turning his head towards the couch, he saw a small lump. Walking forward, he smirked, it was HyunKi. SiWon sat down in the chair next to the couch and stared at HyunKi. He was looked so peaceful when he slept. SiWon had this sudden urge to kiss him. SiWon shrugged, he wouldn't mind would he? HyunKi had given him a blowjob before. SiWon locked the door and made sure that no one would barg in all of a sudden. Liting a few candles, SiWon took of his shirt and moved closer to HyunKi. SiWon smiled at him and sroked his cheek lightly, " wakey wakey HyunKi. " HanGeng stired a bit, groaning, he waved his hand, signalling for SiWon to let him sleep. SiWon smirked," Wake up HyunKi." HanGeng groaned," sleeping, get the fuck away from me. " HanGeng rolled onto his back and continued snoring. SiWon smirked, He gently brushed his fingers over HyunKi's lips, over his chest, and down to his erection, once he found it, he tugged on it gently. HanGeng gasped and shot up from his comfy spot on the couch. SiWon took this opertunity to push his tounge into HyunKi's mouth HanGeng stayed rooted to his spot on the couch, to surprized to do anything in defence. SiWon pushed HyunKi down back onto the couch, postitoning himself ontop of him, he moved his hands up to remove the belt that didn't help HanGeng keep his pants up. As soon as the belt came off, the tight jeans did too. SiWon's mouth opened, then closed, he leaned towards HanGeng and whispered into his ear ," what happen to underwear? " SiWon removed the fish net shirt and the wife beater within seconds, HanGeng gripped onto the couch underneath him as SiWon licked and nipped his way over HanGeng's naked body.

HanGeng's mind went black as soon as SiWon's lips came in contact with his skin, SiWon flicked his tounge over his bare skin, making him gasp in pleasure, he totally forgot about his " i'm not gay " phrase. HanGeng dared himself to grasp onto SiWon's hair has he felt SiWon breath onto his now hard erection. HanGeng desperatly thursted his erection to SiWon's mouth. SiWon laughed a bit," i'm getting there, i'm getting there, be patient." HanGeng panted as he felt SiWon's hand brush over his member as he removed his pants and boxers. HanGeng bit the pillow beneath him and mumbled into the pillow ," hurry up god dammit! " SiWon, flipped HyunKi over and wrapped HanGeng's legs around his own hips, positioning himself at the tight pucker, he teased HyunKi by rubbing his cock against the entrance, pushing a bit in then taking him back out.

HanGeng wimpered, SiWon was huge, the tip of SiWon entered him slowly, then came back out. " Argh! stop teasing! do me! now! " SiWon grumbled ," never met a guy as desperate as you, HyunKi" SiWon, loved to tease this guy, something just made him really atracted to him, making him want every moment of this to last. not just a wam bam, thankyou ~~m'am~~ sir kind of sex.

SiWon positioned himself right at HanGeng's entrance, his hand trailed down HanGeng's spine," you ready, HyunKi?" " For the love of god, YES!" No further instruction's were needed as SiWon plunged himself deep into HanGeng, HanGeng yelped at the sudden deep thrust. SiWon thought his eyes exploded right as he entered HanGeng, he was so tight. HanGeng, clutched the couch below him as SiWon rammed into him repeatedly. HanGeng felt himself ready to come, his neglected member rubbing against the rough material of the couch and SiWon thrusting and hitting the spot repeadily was to much.

" a-ah, SiWon, i'm comming!" SiWon panted as he thrusted deeper and harder into him," HyunKi, oh god, i think i'm going too."

and HanGeng and SiWon' both came, HanGeng slightly before SiWon, splashing his seeds onto the couch and SiWon filling HanGeng.

Both males collapsed onto the couch , SiWon pulled a blanket out of nowhere and covered them both, Snuggling close to each other, they fell fast asleep.

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=0 i added smex into it x) or else it wouldn't be NC-17

Twist and turns part 3

2007-09-19T00:53:40Z

Pulling on a white tee, HanGeng sighed and look at himself in the small mirror hanging at a strange angle on his bedroom wall. Off to the first day of work. I wore a few wife beaters underneath my shirt,, so maybe if someone tries ( god forbid ) touch me, or go any further, they would get annoyed at how many layers they would have to go through. HanGeng walked down the streets on a cool evening. Geng had eaten dinner a bit earlier ( one hour to be more exact ) because, the food would have probably went to his stomach already so that if something at work happens, he wouldn't barf his dinner all out. HanGeng sighed and mentally noted, first day of work, work place? gay bar. hope you have a good time HanGeng! Make more friends! HanGeng added later and stay straight.

HanGeng walked into the bar. There was some soft music on in the background, HanGeng saw the man at the counter yesterday with someone else. Looking up, the man smiled at HanGeng," hi! Your the new guy right? " HanGeng nodded ," I'm EunHyuk, and this is DongHae! " HanGeng bowed towards DongHae and EunHyuk ," It's great to meet you guys, umm... do i need to go check up with the boss first?" EunHyuk smiled ," Oh yea, forgot about that, yea, go see SiWon Hyung first, he'll need to tell you about the rules, show you around, and the dress code." HanGeng's eyes turned a bit suspicious, " dress code? " DongHae smiled at HanGeng, SiWon will tell you about it. HanGeng nodded.

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knock. " Come In! " HanGeng walked into the room, inside was his boss, SiWon, and the man from the cafe. SiWon smiled," Welcome to 1314 club, I'm your new boss, SiWon, and this here is my partner in business, LeeSungMin." HanGeng's eyes widened a bit, LeeSungMin? was it really him? But his thoughts were dissmissed when another question cam, " What's your name?" HanGeng turned to the voice, which came from LeeSungMin, " My name? Han... Han Hyun Ki, My name is Han Hyun Ki Mr. Lee." SungMin smiled," you don't have to do all the formal stuff, Mr.Lee makes me sound like my dad, just call me SungMin hyung." HanGeng nodded. SiWon smiled at SungMin," okay enough with the formal talk or whatever, we are opening in 30 minutes, i need to tell you how to do everything and where everything is, and the dress code. First, dress code, you won't be wearing that to serve at this bar, our staff, other than sungmin and i, wear special more distinctive clothes so that our customers can tell our employee's apart from other customers." SiWon, turned his chair towards his desk and pulled out a plastic bag, he tossed it to HanGeng, " This is your uniform." HanGeng opened the bag, he was about to give SiWon the are-you-serious look but he decided not to. HanGeng held up a black wife beater, a fish net shirt, and some tight jeans, reaching a bit more into the bag, he found some metal chains which he supposed were for belt chains. " Okay, we wasted enough time, hurry up and change, then i need to show you around the place. HanGeng nodded.

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HanGeng popped his head out of the curtains," psssh, DongHae, EunHyuk, i can't where my hand is supposed to go in this fish net." The two turned their heads towards HanGeng and smirked a bit, " It's that really big hole,, there should be two, HanGeng shuffled a bit, then stepped out, the fish net was weird, it was itchy and uncomfortable, the pants..... it was really uncomfortable, his bozers made him look weird. SiWOn and SungMin walked out of the office at this time, SungMin took one look at HanGeng and burst out laughing ," oh.. my god! XD HyunKi! Your pants! XDXD what on earth did you do?" SiWon smirked," yea, what did you do?" HanGeng sighed, " I'm suposing that you two have never tried on a pair of tight tight jeans did you?" SIWOn snorted ," that's because your wearing BOXERS my dear Hyunki, you wear the tidey-wideys or go without underwear, and remind you i don't supply underwear, so i guess your going without underwear tonight.

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" 10 vodka's FOR TABLE 6!" EunHyuk yelled over the loud music, HanGeng groaned a bit and dragged his body over to the counter to pick up the bottles, it wasn't that tiring, but when you have tight jeans ridding up your ass, it's NOT a good feeling. With 5 bottles in each hand, HanGeng made his way thorugh the crowded dance floor. Walking to table 6, he was hopping that it was a group of guys that wern't interesting in banging him... the last few tables, wern't very pleasent, and it took LOTS of slutty looks and breath/talk-into-a-perverts-ear to get them away from him. Walking towards the table, he noticed that the two men sitting there looked familiar, but he know nobody... squinting, he saw... oh god, it was YehSung and RyeoWook, and.... oh god,, were they making out? shit, i'm working at a gay bar where my boss is gay, and my boss and co-worker at the coffee shop are gay too! this is really weird...

Setting the bottles of vodka onto the table, YehSung turned to him, gave him the money, and turned back to RyeoWook, not even noticing that it was HanGeng. Geng turned the other way to deliver a martini to the next table " hmm... table 9..." HanGeng looked around before he say the number nine sticking out from the sea of dancing people.

"Here's your martini, sir."

HanGeng carefully placed the martini down on the table, ready to take his hand off the glass, the mans hand grabbed his, HanGeng's eyes traveled to the man ," sir, may i have my hand back? " The man smirked, tugging on HanGeng's hand, he jerked HanGeng into the seat next to him. I'll let go of it, if you drink all of this." The man pushed a whole bottle of vodka towards HanGeng. Squinting a bit the man looked at HanGeng ," Drink it.... HyunKi, and i'll let you go..." the mans hand traveled to HanGeng's thighs, up....up.....up.... HanGeng couldn't take it, " I'm SORRY SIR, but I am NOT a PROSTITUDE." The man was outraged, " I've been a coustomer here for 5 years and his is they service i get?!" EunHyuk dashed towards HanGeng and the man ," I'm so sorry Mr.Kim," EunHyuk whispered into Mr.Kim's ear, " he's new here, can't you just let him go? He dosen't know the rules yet." Mr.Kim smirked at EunHyuk, who was running a hand down Mr.Kim's chest, down, down, and if HanGeng continued to watch, he knew he would have been sick. " I'm so sorry Mr.Kim, I didn't know about the rules, forgive me." HanGeng bowed towards Mr.Kim. Mr.Kim waved his hand in dismissal as he and EunHyuk sat down and continued their ' coversation ' .

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HanGeng was sent to EunHyuk's spot behind the counter serving drinks there until EunHyuk came back. EunHyuk stumbled back, hair tousled, lips bruised, and fly half done up. EunHyuk looked up at HanGeng," You know what to do next time right? " HanGeng nodded. EunHyuk smiled, " okay, now get these drinks to table 3. " HanGeng nodded.

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" enjoy your drink sir. "

without HanGeng noticing, the man gave HanGeng a look, " thanks"

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after work.

HanGeng rubbed his arms with his hands to keep warm, the night was cold, only a few flickering street lamps to light the way, it was a 15 minute walk back home, HanGeng cursed at himself for wasting the money he could have used for the bus for the 10 bottles of mouthwash. Little did HanGeng know, that a pair of eyes watched him from afar.

" I'll get you, HanGeng. "
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comments please!! =D

Twists and Turns : Part two

2007-09-16T23:37:47Z

re-cap from last chapter.

The man flipped HanGeng around and took his hand out from HanGeng's pants. Unzipping his own, HanGeng heared a zipper unzip , a belt unbuckle, and the light thud of pants and a belt fall to the floor. "Suck" HanGeng's eyes widened. oh shit. he is gay.

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HanGeng froze for a bit.oh god, you can't be serious! I'M NOT GAY!!!! but then again.. i do need this job... ARGH! fine! i'll do it!

HanGeng went down on his knees, closing his eyes, he reached in front of him, ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew okay. found it, ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew reminder to self : by 10 bottles of mouth wash with extra cash.

HanGeng, found the mans erection. Tugging on it a bit, he shuffled on his knees to get closer the the man. HanGeng breathed in deeply and brought the tip of the mans erection to his mouth. Placing it to his mouth, he could feel the precum on his lips O_0 oh god, this is disgusting... HangGeng felt the mans hands curl around his hair. The man thrust forward, forcing HanGeng's lips opened. The man gasped, " Oh god, so warm..." . HanGeng mumbled to himself ," i'm not gay, i'm not gay, i'm not gay, i'm doing this because i need those job! i'm not gay!!" While HanGeng mumbled to himself, it sent vibrations along the mans crotched, making him more turned on. " N-ng... o-oh g-god... h-hard-e-er.... A-AHH!" HanGeng heard the man thump against the wall, but his thoughts were blocked out as the man removed himself from HanGeng's mouth with a slight pop! HanGeng thought it was over, but boy was he wrong. The man reached forward and pulled HanGeng's shirt off. Leaving him in jeans. The man found HanGeng's head and put it back to his erection. " Keep going." and HanGeng did as told. HanGeng's head bobbed back and forth on the mans cock, holding onto the erection with his hands, he felt the man tremble " a-ah, com-ming!" HanGeng's eyes widened, but before he could pull back, the man shot his seeds into HanGeng's mouth. HanGeng didn't want to swallow, but he was afraid that if he spit it out, the man would be angry, so still on his knee's HanGeng kept the mans cum in his mouth, letting some of it spill from his mouth,, onto his chin, and chest. He thought that the man would give further directions, but he was wrong. He heard some ruffling of clothes and the a flick. The lights were on and HanGeng squint a bit before adjusting to the light. Cheeks puffed with the cum in his mouth, he looked up to see the man. The man himself was quite handsome, his lips a bit feminine, but he was quite good looking nonetheless. The man smirked at the look of HanGeng. shirtless with his jeans on, cheeks puffed up cutely with cum dribbling down his chin and chest.

" Swallow. "

HanGeng's eyes widened, but he nodded. Bit by bit, his cheeks less puffed up each time, HanGeng looked up at the man and let the rest of the cum dribble out of his mouth down his chest. " I swallowed it. " i just had to state the olbvious didn't i? The man smirked and walked to HanGeng in his boxers, picking HanGeng up from the floor, he lead HanGeng to a sofa. He pushed HanGeng down onto the sofa and climbed on top of the scared Chinese man. The man lowered himself only HanGeng, he stuck his tounge out to lick off the cum on HanGeng's chest, one hand rolling HanGeng's nipples, the other at HanGeng's mouth, which opened and reluctantly accepted the fingers. HanGeng moaned a bit when the man tweaked his nipples. He felt so week under than mans touch. HanGeng was about to tell the man to continue but the man had stopped, gotten off of HanGeng and pulled his pant's back on.

"Your hired. come to work tomorrow, 8 pm till 2 am, eat dinner before comming. "

HanGeng thanked the man, picking up his shirt and dashing out of the club.

" FREEEE!!!!!!! "

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Next Morning.

HanGeng woke up extra early. Put on a pair of dark jeans, and a grey tee. Hee had tried to look his best today, to give a good impression on his new boss and co-workers. Pulling a bit at the strap of his bag, he walked down the street to the cafe. Opening the door, the sweet smell of coffee greeted him. Walking towards the counter, the man smiled at HanGeng, " Hey, you must be the new guy, HanGeng! " HanGeng nodded and smiled ," yes, and you are... " Geng glanced at his name tag , " RyeoWook, nice to meet you! " RyeoWook smiled, " Yep, if you need any help, you can come to me, but first, you need to report to YehSung- that's our boss, office is down the hall to your right. HanGeng smiled and thanked RyeoWook again. HanKyung knocked. And his boss, what was his name? YehSung. yelled ," come in!" HanGeng walked into the room and spotted his boss, he was, the rocker - ish looking guy, funny how he would open a cafe. YehSung read his mind ," I love coffee, that's why i opened this cafe. " HanGeng nodded. YehSung stood up and smiled, " well, welcome to the family! " after 15 minutes of tell HanGeng where everything was, It was finaly time to open. HanGeng smiled as the first customer walked in , this was a great new start.

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" HanGeng! 2 coffee's, extra sugar and cream for both! " HanGeng nodded and made the coffee's, he walked out of the little ordering area to the table and put down the coffee's ," Here are your coffee's, extra sugar and extra cream right?" The two men looked up at HanGeng, one of them, was the man from last night, the other, the other looked strangly familiar, he didn't know why, but HanGeng felt awkward, " umm... enjoy..." HanGeng walked away briskly, he had almost forgotten about his job at the gay bar.

Twists and Turns : part one

2007-09-16T19:43:04Z

9 years ago.

" You bastard! Come back here!"

The little boy ran for his life, a soft pink bunny clutched in his small shaking hands, he ran and ran, until he hit a corner. falling down onto his back, his eyes grew in fear as he watched the shadow approached him, he finally looked up, angry eyes shot back at him as he felt the soft pink bunny being removed from his grip and a slap on the face.

" This belongs to SungMin! How dare you take this away from my precious little boy! You are nothing in this family! Your mother was an old ugly bitch! That's why your father dumped her and left her to die in the streets! But i have NO idea why he left you! You useless idiot! in this house! "

The woman marched off with the pink bunny dangling from her clutched hands. Biting his lip, the boy felt a tear drop down his face as he watched the pink bunny fade away from his view. His mother's face, voice and warmth began to fade away from his memory as the bunny drew further away from him.

The little boy stood back up on his wobbly feet and managed to choke out ," Give it back! my mother gave that to me!"

The woman turned around and glared at the little boy, she yelled back " So What? It's Sungmin's now, what do you think you are? You HanGeng, have no right to stay in this family!" The woman gabbed HanGeng by the neck and dragged him across the floor, HanGeng was crying and choking, tiny hands curled around the womans hand, trying desperatly to break free. Reaching the big wooden door , the woman threw HanGeng out of the house into the freezing night. Smirking, the woman yelled out ," Your a loser, haven't you ever noticed? Your name is Geng, surname HAN, what is MY husbands last name? LEE. YOU have NO place in this family!" The woman slammed the door shut. Locking the little boy outside of the house.

And from then on, HanGeng was on his own.

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Present . [ 8 years later ] .

HanGeng took one last look at the small shabby building and sighed. once again, he had been thrown out of home. He had lived in this orphanage for 8 years, but now, he was ' old enough to live on your own ' . But he was only seventeen. Had just completed high school and was left with a few pairs of jeans, 4 shirts and a bit of money enough for a tiny tiny apartment. HanGeng sighed. The first thing he needed was a job. Where could he work? Stopping by a bench, he sat down and did some math. He would need.... at least 2 jobs to keep him living. Rent, food, toiletries and maybe some extra money for clothes? Maybe.

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At night.

HanGeng smiled faintly. He had gotten a part time job at mocha cafe around the block from his tiny apartment he had rented a few weeks ago. His only problem was that the cafe only paid him enough to take care of the rent. He would need a second job, but what? He couldn't work at another cafe, because he was affraid that the owner of the mocha cafe would be thinking that Han Geng would leek secrets about their famous mocha's. So as we walked around the place, he had finnaly come down to a job that was sutable for him. A bar. HanGeng sighed, god this would be hard, who would hire a guy to work at a bar? they would hire a girl! HanGeng froze in his steps, a gay bar?! HanGeng bit his lip, it was his only choice. Sighing, he walked a bit further down the street to a gay bar, making a weird expression to himself he noted 'though i have this job, i am not gay.' HanGeng pushed the door opened as the scent of smoke and beer punched his lungs. i'll get used to it HanGeng thought. double checking that there was a ' Hiring part time ' sign at the door, he walked in briskly, looking down on the floor, ignoring the winks he was getting gross he thought. But HanGeng's eyes widened as he felt someone spank him. Turning around, he only saw people dancing. Making a face, he reached the bartender and asked ," Are you hiring? " The man at the counter looked up at HanGeng. " Yes, go to the office and knock 5 times, the office is 5 doors to your right. " HanGeng smiled and bowed as a thanks and moved to walk to the office. The walk was freaky, men eyed him and winked as he walked by, finally, reaching the 5th door, he knocked 5 times. Sucking in a bit of smoke poulluted air. He tried to breath calmly, lets hope this guy isn't gay. The door swung open and a arm reached out to pull HanGeng into the room.

HanGeng stumbled into the pitch dark room as he heard the door click shut. He stood still for a moment. He could hear the faint music outside. But the music became unaware to him as he felt a pair of arms snake around his waist, the man breathed into his ear ," So, you want a job here?" HanGeng managed to whimper out "yeh" as he felt the mans hand travel from his stomach to his pants. The man smirked ," you really need it? " HanGeng gasped as he felt the mans hand travel into his jeans, searching for the band of his boxers. " y-yeh." The man breathed into his ear ," Well, lets see if you qualify." HanGeng cursed in his head as he felt the mans hand find it's way into HanGeng's boxers, grabbing his erection HanGeng gasphed " a-ah! What are you doing? " The man wishpered into HanGeng's ear, " You want this job right? " HanGeng nodded," Well i'm seeing if you qualify." The man flipped HanGeng around and took his hand out from HanGeng's pants. Unzipping his own, HanGeng heared a zipper unzip , a belt unbuckle, and the light thud of pants and a belt fall to the floor. "Suck" HanGeng's eyes widened. oh shit. he is gay.

Chapter One Fin.

we take after umma and appa

2007-09-13T21:53:44Z

HeeChul dosen't really care about his suroundings.
In the kitchen.
In the washroom.
At the dinner table.
In the lounge.
In his room.
He does it.

HeeChul is always beside SiWon, touching him, kissing him, moaning softly into SiWon's ear when SiWon nips at his ear.

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YehSung dosen't care about his surroundings either.
He fucks HanKyung morning/lunch/night. like a daily meal.
always leaving clothes around the place. Boxers. socks. shirts.
YehSung loves pleasure.
Pleasure is when HanKyungs tounge is around his hard member.
A hot mouth around him, head bobbing up and down.
Pleasure is when YehSung is inside of HanKyung.
The tight walls around him.
HanKyung's moan as he tugs on YehSungs hair.

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The "innocent" Sungmin and ryeowook don't care about their surroundings anymore.
They are stuck to each other like glue.
Sharing cherries, bunnies and occasional peck on the lips.
Followed by the loss of clothing.
and the slamming of the door to sungmins room.
and some groans.

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EeTeuk is tired of picking up clothing, dirty boxers, cherry seeds, discarded bunnies.
KangIn is tired of wiping the table at least 10 times a day. He wonders if it is even safe to eat off of it.
EeTeuk and KangIn are sick of it.

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One day, when all of super junior were watching tv. EeTeuk and KangIn decided to make their statement. They did not wan to pick up after the rest of super junior.

And that's what they did.

~`

but the rest of super junior just ignored the mad parents, and continued watching tv. that was, until appa turned off the tv and grabbed sungmin, demanding an answer.

" We are taking after you! appa and umma! just what you said!" Sungmin cleared his throat, jutted his chest out and said in a deep voice," You shouldn't be so irresponsible ! Be more like EeTeuk and I! You should take after us! "

After removing himself from KangIn's grip and sliding back into RyeoWooks lap, he added,

" And that's what we did"

FIN.

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o_0 hmm,, i hope you understood it,., =S that wasn't the best thing i've ever done x_x

when she comes along

2007-08-31T02:55:23Z

note: the girl in this story is made up. ( Chan Nga Sze is canto, Chen Ya Shi is mando, and Jin YangSu is korean xD )

SiWon is jealous. He's jealous of her. What's so good about her? I'm more handsome, AND i can sing, dance, and act! What on earth does HanGeng see in her?

Her name is Chan Nga Sze . She's from HongKong. Can speak good english, cantonese, mandarin and hangul. pretty face? yes. beautiful smile? yes. beautiful voice? indeed.

It all started.....

All of Super Junior was at the airport, heavy makeup and j -rock clothes, they could hardly reconize themselves. Why were they at the airport? they had no idea, only HanGeng knew, after all, he was the one that told them about it and said it was all important. When all of Super Junior ( except HanGeng) complained at how it was 3 am in the morning, HanGeng reasured them that it's almost time.

" HanGeng, you took my tin foil away for this? "

"DongHae, if you come outside with TIN FOIL wraped around yourself, people are going to get suspisous, call the police and BAM,, how do we explaim to-"

" okay okay okay-"

" I don't think this is much of a problem," RyeoWook said as he popped a cherry into his mouth. DongHae stuck his tounge out at RyeoWook and turned his head the the opposite direction.

" Gege!"

"YaShi!!"

all of super junior turned their heads to where HanGeng was heading, But all hey could see was 2 people running up to each other, hug, and kiss on the cheek. SiWon's eyes widened ' who was she? and why was she hugging his HanGeng?'

Walking back over to the 11 confused guys and a very very angry SiWon. HanGeng introduced the girl to them ," Everyone, meet my meimei ( what you would call a girl that is younger than you and is a close friend ), Chen Ya Shi.

" Ahnyoung!"

" ahnyoung......? you speak korean?"

The girl nodded. She had a j-rock style, ( that explains the j rocker clothing super junior had to wear ) , her hair reached her elbows. The top layer of her hair was around her neck and bleached blondish. The bottom layer of her hair was jet black. Here eyes wern't too big or too small just a perfect size, her nose was cute, petite. and her lips where nice and thin. She had a slight resemblence to EeTeuk, their facial features were sort of similar, except for YangSu's face looked more feminie and cute. She was quite tall, nicely sculpted body, and the smile of a godess.

" You can call me YangSu if it's easier."

Super Junior was quite worried..... would this girl be.......... hard to deal with?

HanGeng walked with YangSu talking and chatting while the rest of super junior followed.

" who is she?"

"is she an alien?"

" but you have to admit, she's pretty."

The 10 members of super junior agreed and nodded their head at EeTeuk's statment. SiWon rolled his eyes ," please, your only saying that because she has a bit of a resemblence to you ParkJungSu."

EeTeuk smirked ," somebody is jealous."

" AM NOT!"

" sure xDDD "

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Super Junior apartment.

all 12 members had already taken extreme liking to YangSu, she had something in common with every member ( including SiWon except he wouldn't admit it ) She and EeTeuk looked a bit alike. KangIn would call himself Korea #1... while she called herself HK #1..... HeeChul and her loved to play pranks on almost everyone. HanGeng and her loved to listen to LeeHom. YehSung and her both loved coffee. SungmIn and her had millions of pink bunnies ( they spent hours in Sungmins room playing tea party with they bunnies.) She would eat cherries with RyeoWook, watch Alladin with KyuHyun, play ' aliens attack ' with EunHyuk and DongHae. She and KiBum loved to read ( though they didn't talk much since they were to busy reading when together ) . YangSu and ShinDong both ate a lot.. or loved to eat. She and SiWon were ADDICTED to coke ( but SiWon kept on saying that she was just saying that to gain his affection [ YangSu had went all the way to 7-11 for coke because she was thirsty, and there was water in the fridge all along. ] ) Not only that, but she could sing, dance, cook etc etc. She was friendly and always smiled. But SiWon still didn't like her ' She's faking it!' SiWon declared to super junior one evening when YangSu and HanGeng had went out for a tour of Seoul. The 11 members of super junior ignored SiWon and returned to their activites.

" I miss YangSu, i want her to play tea party with me and Mr.Snuggles and Mr.Cwubbie!

"o_0"

" Mr.Cwubbie is YangSu's pink bunny! it's so cuddly and soft and pwetty!!"

" I want to go play pranks of people with her, she has the best ideas!"

" I want~"

" QUIET! ARGH,, SO FRUSTRATING!!!"

SiWon stood up from his position and stomped into his room.

" Whats with him?"

" Who cares? Hey YangSu is back!"

"Yay!!"

And the 12 members and Super Junior forgot about the pouting Choi Si Won.

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SiWon had enough of this. He would stop being a coward and confess to HanGeng that night!

Walking into HanKyung's room, he didn't even notice that YangSu was talking to HanKyung about something in Mandarin, SiWon tried to catch up but he couldn't, they were talking so fast a fluently. Frustrated, he marched in and seperated them. Facing YangSu, he yelled in hangul ," STOP HOGGING HANGENG! HE'S MINE!" YangSu gave SiWon a strange look for a few seconds and then her expression changed to an understand one ," ohhhh,, i get it, HanGeng gege, ta dway ni you gan zhen!"

"Ya Shi!"

Before HanGeng could get hold of her, YangSu ran out of the room laughing. SiWon and HanGeng stood slient for a second, hearing YangSu knocking on a bunch of doors and whispering.

" What do you think YaShi is doing?"

" Wo ai ni."

" o_0 what?"

"Wo ai ni!"

" are you serious SiWOn?"

"WO, CHOI SI WON, AI NI, HANGENG."

HanGeng couldn't help but smile, "really?"

SiWon nodded and looked down on the floor," do you? "

HanGeng laughed. " Of course! SiWon, i liked you from the minute i met you."

SiWon looked up at HanGeng," really? but then why were you all close to YangSu? giving her hugs 24/7, kissed on the cheek, giving her those cheezy looks all the time?!"

HanGeng didn't answer, instead, he kissed SiWon on the lips, SiWon returned this kiss to his HanGeng, and no body could take him away.

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"Wait! you didn't answer my question yet! Why were you all mussy and mmft!"

HanGeng shut him up with another kiss, after a while, HanGen whispered into SiWOn's ears through bruised lips ," YaShi is my cousin, but she's close to me like a sister since we grew up together."

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Fin. I decided to take a break from the sad sad sad stuff and write something happy-ish for once. hope it was okay ^^Y

Can I love? 2/3

2007-08-29T17:33:43Z

First part : Can I Love 1/3

YehSung coming over for JungSu was regular now, but not always the fucking, well, YehSung had thought of it as making love. Instead, the two filled the night with friendly talks, games, food, cuddling up against each other and watching cheezy flicks. It was heaven for both of them. But love for a ( i didn't like this word but i had to use it ) hooker won't last, unless, of course, you bought him, but not money could buy you everything, you'd have to go through their owner, KangIn. Little did YehSung know that KangIn had great affection over JungSu, and wasn't even close to giving up JungSu.

One night, when cuddled up on the bed, YehSung asked JungSu ," JungSu, I was wondering, but do you think that we will ever, you know, be... one?" JungSu looked up at YehSung with bright eyes, nodding his head as if it were going to come off any second. YehSung laughed at the naive little JungSu and hugged him close.

" I love you, JungSu."

" I love you too, YehSung."

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HanKyung's life was total hell. Since KangIn was on vacation at the moment, SiWon was still here. Bu to HanKyung it was good, he could still see HeeChul, at least for 5 seconds before he disapered into SiWon's room. How HanKyung longed to leave this place with HeeChul, but he wasn't good enough. He wasn't as good looking as SiWon, his hangul really did suck, he didn't have the 'skills', neither could he tell what HeeChul was thinking. SiWon had them all. All HanKyung had was, was nothing. A voice broke his thoughts.

" Hello?"

HanKyung went the the front to find a man in dark jeans, a black shirt and a hat covering his face.

" May I help you? "

The man looked at HanKyung, stumbling a bit," you can help me. "

The man dragged HanKyung into his room, and locked the door. God HanKyung was scared to death. When the man removed his hat, HanKyung could see it was covered with a mask, imposible to see though his face. His body well sculpted and evedently stronger than HanKyung.

" Yes? Mr..."

Pushing HanKyung onto the bed, he whispered in slurred speech ," I'm the man of your dreams, i'll make you moan so dam hard, that you wished that my cock was bigger so i could stuff you full, whore."

HanKyung could hear thorough the mans drunken voice that this man wanted him bad, if he didn't want to get hurt, the best was to go along. Put his brain stopped him, 'What about HeeChul?' 'HeeChul dosen't want you you idiot' he was still debating in his head that he didn't notice that man had already handcuffed his hands to the head board, face down, the man had already taken off his clothes and HanKyungs. Nipping and sucking at HanKyungs skin, HanKyung yelped in Pain as the man bit HanKyung's shoulder. Twisting HanKyungs skin and nipping his way down to HanKyungs entrance. Without any preperation, the man thrusted into HanKyung with no warning, no lube, no kiss to take his mind off the pain. It was pure torture. Before blacking out HanKyung managed to whisper ," HeeChul, save me."

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JungSu had just gotten off the phone with KangIn, depressed, he didn't know what to say to YehSung. KangIn wasn't going to let YehSung buy him, KangIn himself, said that if he didn't break things off with YehSung, he would punish YehSung. JungSu cried himself to sleep, ' I love you , YehSung, so much, i don't know what to do."

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HanKyung's eyes finally opened. Moving a bit, Pain shot up his body as he yelled in agony. When he tried to move his hands, he realized that they were still hand cuffed to the head board. Was the man gone? Why didn't he untie me?" HanKyung got his answer when the saw the man come out of the washroom, turning his head, he saw the man, who had a evil gleam in his eyes, partly staggering to walk,holding a bottle of soju, he gulped down half of it and threw it to the floor. ' God, he wants more!' HanKyung, despite the pain below, frantically thrashed his hand from left to right hopping to get out of this nightmare. But that only made things worse, the HandCuffs cut into HanKyungs skin, ignoring all the pain, " please, let me go, please!" The man smirked at HanKyung and stroked his cheek," and who do you think is going to stop me? I paid for you for the night, and your here to please me! Not whine! Your a hooker dammit, a whore! do your job better!" HanKyung's face stung with pain as the man slapped him. Tears fell from his eyes. The man looked at HanKyung and stroked his cheek ," your so beautiful when you cry, HanKyung." HanKyung thought that the man would leave soon but he was wrong. The man filped HanKyung around and stuffed a vibrater up HanKyung. Once again,with no warning, lube. nothing. Pain once again shot through HanKyungs body. The man turned the vibrater to max and left it there. reaching into his pocket, e took out a video camera and started filming this raw footage. " Please, stop it, it hurts!" HanKyung cried into the bed sheets as the man ingnored the pleads ," shut up you whore, your a hooker, your supposed to please us customers." The vibrater shook HanKyungs whole body, See this, the man became all horny. Placing the video camera onto the tripod, he stripped out of his clothes and walked over to HanKyung, making sure his face wasn't showing to the camera. Taking the vibrater out of HanKyung, he wrapped HanKyung's shivering legs around his waist so that their cocks were rubbing roughly againts each other. The man moaned in estay while HanKyung stayed quite except for a few sobs that escaped his mouth. This angered the man as he slapped HanKyungs face," Moan you whore, your here to please me!" HanKyung shook his head in refusal, only to recive a blow to his stomach, making in jerk back, then forward towards the man. HanKyung forced himself to moan, but it came out like moan of mercy, the man wasn't satisfied. He delivered a blow at HanKyungs body which jerked HanKyung back and then forward. HanKyung moaned loudly, this time more like it. The man smiled evily and stroked HanKyung's cheek which was soaked with sweat and tears. "Thats a good boy." The man shoved his erection into HanKyungs swollen and dry entrance and thrusted hard. HanKyung screamed in pain, but the man was enjoying every moment of it," so tight. Keep yelling bitch." HanKyung didn't force his screams, they came like that. ' God, someone save me." HanKyung thought, screaming, as the man twisted a nipple thrust into him repeatidly. HanKyung felt the man fill him with semen as the man came, he knew that if he didn't cilmax, the man would never stop, rubbing their erections together, HanKyung forced himself to climax. arching off the bed, HanKyung accidentally yelled out," Oh god,, HeeChul." the man was furious, climbing on top of HanKyung he slapped, nipped, twisted at HanKyungs skin over and over again, " You whore! thinking of another man when i'm with you? You need a lesson to be taught, and let it be taught by me."

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YehSung knocked on JungSu's door . No answer. He knocked again, he heard some shuffling. Pushing the door opened, he spotted JungSu curled up on the bed, sound asleep. Smiling, YehSung locked the door and walked over to the sleeping JungSu. Stroking his cheek, he climbed onto the bed with JungSu. Cuddling up to JungSu, he turned off the lights, kissing JungSu's forhead, he whispered," Saranghae, JungSu, i love you no matter what." A tear fell from JungSu's face as he whispered to the now asleep YehSung," I love you too YehSung, I love you no matter what happens!"

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The man had finally left. He had uncuffed HanKyung and smirked ," Well done, i won't be back until next week, maybe by then, your boss will be back and i'll buy you from him, and you can't disagree, or else." The man waved the video tape in front of HanKyung, " Or else this." and the man left.

Just a few seconds later, the bell rang. HanKyung but on his boxers and a t-shirt and forced himself off the bed. Oh god, there was blood. pulling on a pair of dark jeans, he painfully walked out of the room. Looking through his weary eyes, he say, he saw HeeChul, He forced his eyes opened, HeeChul had come! HeeChul really did come!

" Hi HeeChul!"

HeeChul nodded and looked behind HanKyung. HanKyung soon realized that HeeChul had come fore SiWon. HanKyung smiled and said, " SiWon's in his room." HeeChul nodded and walked towards SiWon's room. HanKyung fell to the floor right after the door to SIWon's room closed. Blood was now seen on his dark jeans, his visison was fading a bit, now it was just a blur.

" Why? Why me?"

Can I love?

2007-08-28T23:11:22Z

o_0 i just came back from Boston,, and i was reading so many fanfics ( buuh i caught up!! x) anywho,, i went through some of them and they were the hooker fics,, got quite obsessed... so i'm writing one too xS )
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Hands stuffed into his leather jacket pockets, YehSung tossed his bangs so they wouldn't cover so much of his face, It was quite quiet on the streets, even though it's just 8 in the night. Reaching his destination , he entered the tall building. The man at the counter smiled at YehSung ," May i help you?" YehSung returned the smile to HanKyung," Yea, i was wondering who'd be good for me tonight, maybe you?" HanKyung smiled apologetically, "I'm sorry, I'm booked tonight" YehSung raised an eyebrow, "HeeChul had you just yesterday, he booked you again?" HanKyung blushed, "Well, he hasn't really booked me but he said he was going to drop by..." YehSung chuckled and nodded his head," got it, so who else is avalible?" HanKyung scratched his head and flipped through a big thick book." well, we do have a new guy who came in a few days ago, what about it?" YehSung shrugged his shoulders," what's his name?"

"JungSu"

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JungSu looked at his reflection in the bathroom mirror, JungSu saw a whore reflecting into the mirror. Taking this job made him feel dirty, well, it was a dirty business, but, what could he do? with not much education, the "parents", 2 younger sibilings to take care of, this was the only job JungSu could think of that would supply him with good money so he could take care of his sibilings, pay the rent, have enough to eat, it was good enough.

"JungSu! It's me Hankyung"

JungSu moved to open the door to be greeted by his fellow co- worker," Hey HanKyung, what's up?" HanKyung smiled a bit," This is YehSung, you will be taking care of him for tonight." JungSu looked behind HanKyung's shoulder to see a.... a quite attractive man. " I'll leave you two now, i think HeeChul's going to be here soon." Closing the door behind HanKyung, he turned to look at his first customer. " umm...... hi...?" YehSung couldn't help but smirk, naive? no? this man was different from others, probably had no experience. " You do know what to do right?" JungSu nodded. "Well then, shall we start?" JungSu nodded and recalled what HanKyung had told him remeber, the point of them coming is because they want something special, not something they can find on the streets.and also keep in mind is that you are their to please them, so just give them what they want.

Of course, this was JungSu's first time, how would he know what to do? But YehSung had done this many times, he knew what to do. Advancing to JungSu, he stroked his cheek gently and whispered, " this is your first time, i'll be gentle " Taking JungSu's lips to his own, YehSung kissed JungSu softly, earning a soft moan from JungSu, YehSung took this opportunity to taste JungSu, pushing his tounge into JungSu's mouth, he could taste..... the Vita soya milk drink, taking a quite look at his suroundings, he saw one of those kiddy Vita soya drink cartoons in the garbage can, chuckkling at how someone his age would drink those. After pulling away from JungSu, YehSung looked at JungSu, taking a good look at him, glossy eyes that werent very small of very big, a elegant nose, thin rosy lips that were a bit swollen from the kiss. Looking a bit further, he really wondered what was under the snoopy t-shirt and sweat pants. JungSu wasn't stupid, he knew what YehSung wanted after YehSung started to look at him. Pulling his shirt off, he moved closer to YehSung, breathinga bit on YehSung's ear, he said " I'll take it from here" Kissing YehSung on the lips once again, he moved to take off YehSung's leather jacket, revealing a tight black t-shirt where you could sort of make out his abs, tracing a finger down his chest, he reached for the hem of the shirt and pulled it up, over YehSung's head, god he's hot JungSu thought as YehSung's body was revealed to his eyes. moving to his pants, JungSu traced a finger over the belt before unbuckling it dropping it carlessly onto the floor, JungSu moved to the jeans, quickly undoing the button and zipper, the loose pants dropped to the floor, JungSu could see from the think material of the boxers that YehSung quite needed a blow job at the moment. Gently, he pushed YehSung to the bed, crawling ontop of YehSung, he traced his inner thighs and member with his delacate hands. Hearing YehSung moan loudly and grip the bed sheets, he knew that YehSung needed it. Pulling off YehSungs boxers, EeTeuk lifted the length to his mouth and started to suck on it, he didn't know how to use his tounge of anything. But his hot mouth over YehSung's member was good enough for now. Of course, For now was quickly over as YehSung grabbed into JungSu's hair and thrusted into JungSu's mouth, JungSu understood and started to use his tounge, sucking hard on YehSung's cock, massaging YehSungs sac, using his lips and pressed them against YehSungs tip, he could taste the pre- cum in his mouth. YehSung's eyes shot open as JungSu's lips were pressed against his tip, 'o god' he thought ' he's such a tease. time for me to come back in order!' After the thought YehSung immediatly flipped him over and pulled off JungSu's loose sweat pants revealing no boxers ' i guess hanKyung taught him something after all' YehSung took 2 fingers, and offered them to JungSu, JungSu started to suck them licking the 2 dry fingers, coating them in his saliva. YehSung took his fingers from JungSu's mouth and replaced them at JungSu's entrance, "ready?" JungSu nodded. Slowly tracing the entrance, YehSung gently pushed his fingers into the entrace and plunged deeper and deeper each few seconds. JungSu squirmed around a bit , it wasn't painful, well a bit, but it did feel quier, JungSu had plunged a vibrater into himself yesterday over and over again with no lube to get used to the feeling so their wouldn't be much pain later on when he had more customers. But this time it was different. YehSung was skilled, not like the vibrater that JungSu had put into him before, YehSung pleasered him, there was no denying that. But JungSu had another feeling, a feeling as if it wasn't enough. JungSu finaly came to the conclusion. He wanted more. Panting a bit, he whimpered," YehSung, please give me more." Blushing a bit after pleading for more, it sounded awkward, since he was supposed to be the one pleasing YehSung. YehSung took his fingers from JungSu's entrance and readied his cock at JungSu's entrance " Lube?" "no, just take me." "You sure?" "Yes, please!" YehSung smirked and placed his cock at he entrance, teasing JungSu a bit, " In here?" "Oh god, YehSung, please, ram into me, hard! just take me!" YehSung leaned forward and brushed his lips over JungSu's nipple. Shuddereing under YehSung, Jung Su knew he couldn't take any more teasing, flipping them over. He placed YehSung's cock at this entrance and sunk the cock into his own entrance. God, YehSung was bigger than he thought, maybe lube would have been a big help, but for now, he just wanted YehSung in him.

YehSung looked at JungSu briefly and decided that he needed help, taking a hold of JungSu's hips and guided JungSu, Pushing him down and up down and up, ' god, he's so tight' YehSung moaned, soon he let go on JungSu's hips, letting JungSu do it himself, but it wasn't enough, he wanted more, lifting his hips of the bed, he thrusted into JungSu at the same time as JungSu pushed down. The feeling to exqisit for both of them. "oh my god, i'm coming JungSu!" and YehSung came, arching his back off the bed as he feel back onto the white sheets with a light thud. JungSu came shortly after and lied down on YehSungs chest. Snuggling close to YehSung, he kissed his lips and pulled the covers over both of them. " well, at least this day came by nicely."

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HanKyung was seated on his bed, waiting for HeeChul to come, god he felt so desperate, but he couldn't help it, HeeChul was wonderful. He wasn't like his other costomers who only fucked him roughly and threw the money down on him. HeeChul was something different. He was gentle, he always asked if this was comfortable or was he hurting HanKyung. HanKyung felt..... he felt loved. He knew that he wasn't supposed to fall in love with a customer, but he couldn't help himself. He was basically blinded by love, almost 100% sure that HeeChul had feelings for him.

" Anyone here?"

HanKyung's eyes lit up. HeeChul was here! HanKyung sprang from his bed, smoothed his hair out and walked out of his room. "Hi HeeChul!" HeeChul turned around to face HanKyung, " Hello HanKyung" HanKyung blushed a bit and looked down to his feet, " so, what brings you here?" HanKyung expected to here HeeChul say " you, of course." but other words came. " I'm here for SiWon." HanKyungs face fell. " SiWon?" HeeChul nodded and smiled," I was actually going to ask SiWon if i could buy him from here so that he dosen't have to be here anymore, so he'd come live with me! You think SiWon would like it?" HanKyung was still in a bit of shock, but he managed to splurt out ," Of course! SiWon's in his room, if you want to buy him, just contact KangIn!" HeeChul's eyes Widened with happiness," Really?! yay!!" and HeeChul skipped all the way to SiWOn's room, after the door closed, there was a bit of chattering and screams of happiness.

Why am i so stupid?

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wow,, this was kinda long o_0

livewithnolove @ 2007-08-19T12:05:00

2007-08-19T20:58:16Z

HanKyung's eyes were wide open, he was spread out on his bed like a starfish, there was moaning coming from the bathroom, and it really wasn't pleasant. I mean, who wants to hear moaning, possibly from sex, in the middle of the night?! Hankyung rolled over to his left to find the clock. " dam, it's 3 am " and rolled back to go to sleep.

and the moaning continued, dam HanKyung thought this is really not helping! Pulling the covers over his body, he tried to sleep.

" faster! faster! faster!! SiWon! Faster!"

"HeeChul, i think i'm coming!!!"

" Oh god! go, again, keep it going!"

HanKyung froze, oh god, that is gross, it's 3 am in the morning, what the heck? can't they have sex when everyone isn't sleeping, or at least trying to sleep. A few moments later, he added or when people need to go use the washroom?

Groaning a bit, HanKyung forced himself off the cozy soft bed and moved to the bathroom, the door was opened, but the light was off, good, they are done with their... ugh,, sex.

Hankyung moved into the bathroom, HanKyung closed the door, but missed the little knob where it would securely lock, making the door still openable. After finnishing his business and washing his hands, he decided to take a shower, boxers discarded on the floor, HanKyung reached for the shower curtain, but the curtain revealed a not so pleasant scene.

Semen. yes. Semen, was found all over the tub, the water still in the tub.. it was really gross. All i wanted was to take a shower, but i guess it's not possible to take one without cleaning this mess up. With a glove, HanKyung closed his eyes and pulled the plug that prevented the semen filled water from leaving the tub. This is really gross.

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On the other side of the apartment, YehSung was hearing the moans from SiWon and HeeChul, why did he have to share a room with those two ? YehSung decided to leave, anything would be better than this.

" When you two are done your daily sex, tell me, so i don't have to spend the night out there."

HeeChul grunted. SiWon responded with a gasp. YehSung responded with a sigh.

YehSung walked out of the room and headed for the washroom " I should probably wash up " he thought, when he reached the washroom, he heared water draining and a groan, is someone having sex? ugh, like heechul and siwon daily sex wasn't bad enough. But being the curious person he was, he decided to go take a look. YehSung quietly pushed the door opened and stuck is head inside, his eyes widened as he say a man's naked back, YehSUng couldn't help but stare, the man's hair was sleep tousled, with a touch of light brown. He didn't have the biggest guns but they were good enough to attract YehSung to him, his eyes traveled down to his lean hips and down to his ass-

" HOLY SH*T! YEHSUNG, WHAT AR-"

HanKyung's yells were muffled by YehSung's hand

" Shut up Hankyung, your gonna wake everyone up!"

HanKyung nodded and YehSung moved to lock and close the door properly. Turing back to HanKyung, he looked past him and to the tub. Walking to the tub, he examined it, " is that, oh god, semen? "

HanKyung nodded ," but it-"

YehSung got that little gleam in his eyes, moving towards HanKyung, he smiled and wishpered, " Next time, just tell me that you want it, i'll help you."

YehSung took HanKyung by surprize and pushed HanKyung into the tub, " Wait! i didn't finish!" YehSung kissed HanKyung on the lips and wishpered ," I don't care, i just know i want you right now." YehSung, pushed HanKyung down and moved to his crotch, he took the length into his mouth and started to suck, up and down, swirling his tounge all around the length, not missing an inch, HanKyung was shocked, half wanting to tell YehSung to keep on going, half wanting to tell YehSung that- no, it was to much, HanKyung needed more. HanKyung desperatly tried to thrust into YehSung's mouth but YehSung had him stuck to the tub. HanKyung shuddered as he released into YehSung's mouth and leaned back into the tub. YehSung moved to take off is boxers and pulled HanKyung forward, using his own saliva as lube, he took his own length, positioning himself right at HanKyung's opening, he thrust into HanKyung- hard. Hitting the spot @ the first go, he recieved a shuddering gasp from HanKyung which told him so, making sure to hit the spot over and over again. Ramming into HanKyung at the beat of his heartbeat, they countinued at this rate for quite a time. YehSung released into HanKyung and HanKyung relased into YehSung's stomach. Panting, they rested in the tub for a while, but their rest was inturupted.

"YehSung?"

"yea Hannie?"

" i forgot to tell you, but....... by any chance, did you see HeeChul and SiWon come out from the bathroom?"

" No but i could hear them screwing each other in the room, why?"

"Well..."

"Oh god,, please don't tell me that the semen is....."

" it.... i'm afraid it is..."

" OMG!! WHY ARE WE STILL HERE?"

"RUN YEHSUNG!!!!!"

HanKyung and YehSung shot up , grabbing their boxers and dashed towards HanKyung's room and slammed the door.

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SungMin woke up to some screaming and the slamming of doors, shaking EeTeuk and KangIn awake, he said

" Umma, appa, I heard some screaming and slamming of doors, i'm scared!"

EeTeuk opened one eye and motioned for SungMin to come sleep inbetween KangIn and EeTeuk.

"Go to sleep SUngminnie"

"Good night Umma, good night appa "

" Good night Sungmin"

" OH MY GOD THAT WAS DISCGUSTING!!"

This time, KangIn, EeTeuk and SungMin all heard it. Following appa and umma, SungmIn, Kangin and EeTeuk opened the door to their room, seeing the light in the bathroom, they thought that to noise was comming from the bathroom, KangIn being the appa, entered the bathroom with no fear. Walking in after KangIn was EeTeuk who had a scared Sungmin clinging to his arm. All three of them walked to the bathrom, walking to the tub, Sungmin peered at the tub, pointing to a clearish whitish substance, he asked EeTeuk and KangIn " Appa, Umma, whats that?"

" OMG! KANGIN, BRING SUNGMIN BACK INTO THE ROOM NOW!"

" Is it semen?"

"shhh!"

"What's semen, appa? what's semen umma? is it that stuff that was on your bed umma?"

EeTeuk blushed a bit, but got back on track," No sungmin! go back to bed." EeTeuk covered Sungmin's eyes as KangIn ushered SungMin back into the room.

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HeeChul and SiWon peered outside of their room, and high fived each other.

It's only fan-service 2/2

2007-08-16T21:33:17Z

if you haven't read the previous chappie,, it's here : it's only fan-service

After what seemed of a short while, HanKyung regained consciousness, where am I? Is this heaven? Is this really real? Or too good to be true?! But I’m wearing white, why do I have wings on my back? Am I really dead? Well, I wanted this, but, I all of a sudden feel so regretful, I left my parents who love me behind in the cruel world, how could I have been so selfish? But as long as I’m on heaven, I will look after them from above, I hope that they won’t know this, maybe until we meet again in heaven. Wait, that won’t be until….. I don’t know how long.

After thinking a bit, HanKyung couldn’t help but remember a song that basically grew up with him. But every beautiful piece of lyrics gave him negative feelings

你问我爱你有多深 - But you never returned my love
我爱你有几分 - But all I heard were lies among lies
我的情也真 - though my affection is real, you never cared
我的爱也真 - my love remains true
月亮代表我的心 - the moon represents my heart, dried up, wasteland like, craters of imperfection, amazing to you because you don’t really know me.

你问我爱你有多深 - I have told you many times and it will never change
我爱你有几分 - though I am stupid for this, I cannot and will not regret my choices
我的情不移 - my affection remains, no matter how hard I try
我的爱不变 - it will never change
月亮代表我的心 - the moon represents my heart

轻轻的一个吻 – just one small and soft kiss
已经打动我的心 - is enough to move my heart

HanKyung couldn’t go on listening to the song,, covering his ears with his hands, no repeated it in his head “ bu shi le! Bu shi le! Wo bu cu ye ai ta!”

As HanKyung kept on consulting himself, the door opened, bright light flooded into his room like an endless road, peeking from the slits between his fingers, he say a … man… a man with wings

“ are- are you an- an angel?” HanKyung asked in shaky Chinese.

The man looked at HanKyung for a moment, but snapped out of his thought, dropping the basket in hand, he ran towards HanKyung

“ Kyung! Your awake! Oh I knew you would live! I know you would! Everyone! HanKyung is alive! He’s awake!”

As soon as the man finished his sentence, around… no, there were to many, he could count,,, 2…4…6…8…10…11 , adding the man with wings, there were 11 people in the room. Readjusting his position, he could finally see their faces with out light in his eyes” Teukie? Is that you? Are you in heaven too? What happened? Why is everyone here?”

EeTeuk looked at Hankyung for a moment, then turning to the rest of super junior with a confused face. “ No HanKyung, KangIn found you unconscious in the bathtub, there was so much blood, what happened?”

HanKyung opened his mouth slightly, he wasn’t dead. The cruel world refused to let go of him. He knew it, he wouldn’t have such luck, perhaps he was forced to stay and suffer. No miracle was happening, and yes, life could get better, a lot better.

“ Leave me alone please, I don’t want to talk about anything, I’m tired and sore, I feel like a pile of poo abandoned on the sidewalk for anyone to step on, you guys happy ?”

Now everyone in the room had their mouths hanging opened, no one knew what had happened between Hankyung and SiWon, all they knew was that HanKyung was with SiWon. EeTeuk being the umma who was very understanding ( but not in this situation ) motioned for everyone to leave, as soon as everyone left, EeTeuk poked his head into the room,” I don’t know what happened, but just keep in mind that all of Super Junior loves you, no matter what.”

“ Everyone except siwon.” HanKyung mumbled.

A few week’s later, HanKyung was strong enough to leave the hospital, the fresh air that hit his cheek gentile welcomed him back into the world, all of a sudden, HanKyung felt so alive, he knew his answer, he wanted to live. With SiWon or without, he wanted to live. He knew that facing SIWon in the future would be hard on him, but it will pass.

Hopefully.

Happiness was into HanKyungs life again, he had a few conversations with siwon and heechul, everything was good, he would feel a bit sad but cheer himself up with LeeHom’s music. Well, that’s what he thought, even to himself, he couldn’t notice that he was dying a little each day inside, SiWon and HeeChul cuddled up against each other where ever they could. Even among the fans, it wasn’t HanKyung & SiWon, it was SiChul, everyone had forgotten SiHan, it was only SiChul in the fans minds, but HanKyung kept it locked up, he barely noticed himself, until he randomly started crying, during breakfast, during dance practice, during a shower. But nobody noticed, everyone was to busy with their schedules, even EeTeuk-umma and KangIn-appa were to busy to notice. But, nothing can be hidden forever. Everyone in Super Junior witnessed it, during dinner, all of a sudden, no warnings, HanKyung started to cry, it started with a few tears, HanKyung kept on saying it was his allergies, but soon, he whole body shook, with , with, HanKyung didn’t know, EeTeuk rushed over the HanKyung, rocking the trembling Hankyung who was mumbling Chinese to himself, all of super junior was now crowded around HanKyung, wondering what was happening, SiWon peered over the other members with HeeChul by his side, what was wrong? SiWon didn’t know but soon, he could hear cries fill the room, he second cry came from SungMin, who could stand to see his martial arts buddy in this state, he couldn’t hold it, he sunk into KyunHyun’s arms and cried, it couldn’t help himself, soon, half of Super Junior was crying, along with DongHae wrapping himself with tin foil muttering a few words about aliens must have ambushed HanKyung and must go hunt them. Soon, SiWon found himself hugging the arrogant Cinderella in his arms, yes, the arrogant Cinderella was crying too, HeeChul couldn’t help himself, HanKyung was one of the closest people to him in super junior, he could stand there are watch his dongsae like this, the tears came down freely.

HanKyung looked around his surroundings through blurry eyes, through hiccups and gasps he managed to say “我爱你….. 我爱你有十分”

With a kiss on the forehead, EeTeuk finnaly left HanKyung with KangIn tugging on his to leave HanKyung to rest a bit. With a huff and a puff and a sigh, EeTeuk finally left.

HanKyung didn’t know why he was still crying, but he knew he had found out something.

He had found real love. The love of friendship, and that was more than enough to him. Looking out his window, he smiled, the last line of the verse came.

月亮代表我的心

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translations :)

bu shi le! Bu shi le! Wo bu cu ye ai ta : no! it's not! i cannot love him.

ty for reading,, i changed the original 2nd part a bit so it wouldn't be as sad :) hope you enjoy!

It's only fan-service

2007-08-16T01:53:41Z

"It's only fan-service..."

Those..... those...... I can't even stand up to count those hurt full words, every time i stop to think, i feel this sharp pain in my chest, as if i was lying on the floor and someone decided to step right where my heart is...... me and my horrible Korean, was, where my heart was..... it's not with me anymore. Somewhere with him... in his hand. no, in the garbage can or somewhere on the floor, thrown without thought, it's made of delicate material, somewhat like the thinnest glass shaped into a heart, it will break if you push on it slightly, but after a slight push, it can be fixed. Unfortunately for us... no me, you have smashed it onto the floor mindlessly, i cannot find not even on shard of the millions of pieces it has broken into, i hope i can find at least one of those pieces, for
maybe... just maybe, i will have the courage and hope to find someone who will possibly care for me, even as a brother.

But looking back on it all, i really don't know what i did wrong, was it because i wasn't good in bed? or because i don't have good hangul? or am i not pretty enough? am i really that annoying? or repetitive? I can change! i really can! it will only take a bit, please, can't you wait?

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HanKyung looked at his reflection in the small mirror in the bathroom, loser loser loser was what he saw in the mirror. He was a loser, how could be belive such words, nowadays, i love you isn't true, it probably never was, no matter how or what language he said it in, HanKyung belived them, the deep Saranghae's, the slightly accented wo ai ni, and the mocking HeeChul and EunHyuk You are so gorgeous. He belived them. Stripping out of his sweaty clothing , HanKyung stepped into the shower. As he turned the shower knob to warm water, the memories with him cam flooding back into his mind. The sweet talk. The "watching" movies nights. The shower sex. yes. shower sex, HanKyung sunk into a tight ball and couldn't help but lets the tears fall, blending in with the water pelets that rained down on is bare back, hot water hit his back with no mercy, it kept on raining raining raining. Staying in that position for quite a while, he told himself ," Things will get better!" after a bit, he added ," i hope..."

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Fresh from the shower, HanKyung slopply tied the towel around his bare hips and opened the bathroom door. Outside stood, outside, HanKyung couldn't bare to say his name, all the pain he had caused him, killed him, he couldn't bare to do anything, not even talk to him.

" Hey HanKyung"

HanKyung nodded his head and turned to head for his room. He stopped. It's not he didn't want to return to his room, but when your stuck, it's quite hard you see. Hankyung looked back on his arm, which was held back by...

"Si Won, can you let go of my arm, please?"

SIWon smiled, it was a friendly smile, or HanKyung could only hope it was, but before he could act, he pulled hankyung back into the washroom and quickly locked the door. Turning back to HanKyung, SiWon took a quick look at him and pushed him back into the wall "that's going to leave a bruise" but SiWon never thought of that, taking action, SIWon, tugged in the towel that hung dangerously loose around HanKyung's lean lips. HanKyung struggled a bit, no wanting to be tempted, " He broke your heart HanGeng! Bu cu ye ah! Ta bu ai ni! ta shi young ni de, bu shi ai ni..... shi young ni. SHI YOUNG NI!" But HanKyungs body refused as HanKyung could feel his body practically melt into SiWon's hands. "Why does he have to play me like this? can't he just stop?" but it was SiWon, the man who would never love him, He was to good for him, what as he thinking for those past few months?That SiWon would actually like him? God he felt stupid. But those thoughts were gone and HanKyung felt himself being torn apart. Muffiling his screams and moans with his forearm, SiWon rentlessly pushed into HanKyung over and over again, not stopping to think about the pain he was and had caused to HanKyung. But different from before, HanKyung couldn't feel pleasure, the tears dripping down his face non-stop. There was pain. His insides were torn, ripped heartlessly. His body, and heart ( which no longer belonged to him ) ripped up, painful wounds newly created over the old ones. As SiWon placed a deep rough demanding kiss onto HanKyungs dry lips, he took HanKyung's member into his mouth and started to bob his head up and down, Although he was crying, HanKyungs body was responding to SiWon, attempting to thrust into SiWon's mouth as he held HanKyung down by the hips.

" Oh god, i can't belive i gave in, i'm a loser that dosen't deserve a place on this planet."

SiWon, swallowed all that HanKyung relased and wiped his mouth, moving to HanKyung's face, he placed gentle buterfly kisses all over his face, taking hold of his shoulder, SIWon sucked on the skin till there was a bruise like mark. Putting his clothes back on, he smoothed out his hair and walked out of the bathroom. Leaving HanKyung in there. Kyung looked at the door, partly hoping that SiWon would return and tell him that he loved him and everything would be alright, but also half hopping that he would never see SiWon again and move on. But this is delight and dissmay, SiWon poked his head back into the bathroom, taking a quick look at HanKyung, he said," The hickey i left you is for the fan -service, night, i'm going to HeeChul's room."

"Wo shi ee ge bun dan, shi ee ge sha gua, wo shi ge fei ren, wo ying ge huy chu si."

HanKyung looked around at his surrondings and found a shiny peice of metal, a razor,

" I guess i'll have to keep the pain from comming if i don't want to be such a loser."

HanKyung slid the razor over his wrists, the blood starting to flow out, it felt so good, he felt so free, but he could also feel himself almost drained of life. With nearly his last grain of energy, using his blood, on the carpet, he wrote,

"SiWon, zhai jien, 520 1314."

after merrly finnishing the four, the world turned black, " Now this is a world that is right for me."

Smile!

2007-08-06T16:38:12Z

"KyunHyun..."

"What is it YehSung"

"I know this sounds weird...nevermind,, close your eyes!"

KyunHyun did as he was told, YehSung took a deep breath and leaned forward, this attempt had to work!

But of course , there is always something wrong that happens when YehSung attempted...

" Suprize!!Smile!!"

" =D! "

" = = "

"Isn't this the best picture of us catching your attempted of confessing, YehSung?"

" shut up HeeChul."

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sorryy,, it was kinda short.. okay... really short,, not really a story at all... i edited it a bit

〖 期待 ● 期待你發現我的愛 〗